kill or be killed

Saturday was boring.

Sunday was relatively OK, with the F1 Race and all.
The previous night when I was watching the qualifying rounds I felt very pitiful for Alonso because he was in 15th position just because he's engine screwed up, which wasn't his fault.
But last night I didn't like Alonso. Because I felt like he didn't earn the 1st position with his own effort, with Piquet crashing, Massa falling so behind, that Force India guy crashing and Räikkönen crashing too.
I mean, obviously I didn't expect Alonso to stay and wait behind to ask, "How are you" to those who crashed, but still, it didn't seem fair.

Yesterday after school stayed behind with Irene to do crap.
Went home at around 4pm, bathed, ate, blahed.
Went AMK Hub to watch Babylon A.D.
I liked it. I just had a hard time figuring out some parts. Like how come out of the blue Arora can get pregnant.

But the storyline wasn't bad.
I liked the way Toorop spoke, like it was a dog-eat-dog world out there.
"Trust no one," he said.

It's a tough world out there huh.

Made speech today during Lang Arts.
Did boring practical during Science.

And I just realised there's only 10 more days left.
I haven't started revising!
Zzz.

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I don't know how to put this into words.
I know it's impossible, somewhere inside I already knew.
I'm doing this to lessen the pain, so don't blame me.
It'll still be hurtful for me, but damn, it'll definitely be better this way.

blogthings

If You Were Slightly Different, Your Name Would Be:

Alf

What Would Your Name Be If You Were Slightly Different?

Alf is a nice name.. O.o

You Are Extremely Thin

Your BMI is 16.4 - a healthy BMI falls between 18.5 and 25 You definitely don't need to lose weight. In fact, you need to gain some weight to ensure you're healthy. So go ahead and pig out! Don't agree? Blame the government standards we based this test on!

Do You Need to Lose Weight?

-.- Retarded. I am not extremely thin.

And for this next one I had two answers:

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Oh oops. Am I? I don't know.

And this:

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant. People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force. Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

I don't even really feel like I know myself.

You Are a Lip Piercing

You are rebellious and defiant. You resist conforming and following rules. You're the type to get pierced anywhere you want, and you're not taking your piercings out for anyone! Reflective and philosophical, you've spent a lot of time thinking about how you'd like to live your life. And it just so happens that your preferred lifestyle is pretty far outside the mainstream. While people may find you standoffish, you aren't necessarily rude, mean, or judgmental. You just don't try to fit in. And that's enough to scare most people away!

What Piercing Are You?

Not true. Lalala

You Are 80% Real

You know who you are, and you're pretty darn comfortable with yourself. Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great... But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults. As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real.

How Real Are You?

LOL this contradicts the quiz on top.

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"I dunno, press the button and find out."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

So you gonna press the button?
Heh.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, falling in love is all about flirting and feeling playful. You couldn't fall in love with someone who took life too seriously.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

o.O

You Are Flip Flops

You are laid back and very friendly. Cheery and sunny in disposition, you usually have something to smile about. Style is important to you, as long as you can stay casual. It takes a lot to get you to dress up! You are a loyal and true person, though you can be a bit of a flake. You tend to "play hooky" and blow off responsibilities a lot more than most people. You should live: By the beach You should work: At a casual up and coming company

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

LOLOL

I DON'T LIVE FOR YOU.

Right, I don't.

I have to keep remembering that.

I've said it before, and I'm saying it again.
Don't lead me on if you're not trying to win me over.

blogthings

Your Girl Parts Are Named:

Velvet Love Pocket

Girl Parts Name Generator

LOLOL. Hilarious.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational person with a good deal of balance in your life. Friends consider you to be kind, caring, and truly loyal. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. Open to the world, you are not afraid to be yourself. If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Able to cope It's hard to sleep next to you because: You're a bed hog

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

LOL!

Your Slogan Should Be

Mutang. Uncommonly Made, Uncommonly Good.

The Slogan Generator

Huh?

What Your Playing Cards Tell About Your Future

Right now you are focused on your internal emotions, including a bit of pain and suffering. Your emotions are currently tied to the future and your hopes for improvement. A good deal of luck is likely to come your way soon. Your closest friend has brought you a lot of happiness and luck. The two of you have many fun memories. The near future will bring a shady, selfish person into your life. This person will bring a lot of bad news. Beware of false friends. Someone you are close to will soon betray you. Take a close look at your relationships.

The Playing Card Test

*Raises one eyebrow*

What Your Bed Says About You

Outward appearances are a concern of yours, but not your primary concern. You try to take care of yourself and your home, but it's not an obsession. You try to be an organized person, but you often fall behind. Certain parts of your life tend to fall into chaos. You are not very high maintenance in general, but you are high maintenance about a few things. In relationships, you tend to kick back and let the other person be in charge. You tend to be a dreamy, head in the clouds type of person. You think in terms of possibilities. You are a bit of a homebody, but you can also make yourself at home anywhere.

What Does Your Bed Say About You?

Am I?

Your Birth Month is July

Introspective and intense, you tend to be a deep thinker. You are quiet and spiritual - and you have a unique perspective on life. Your soul reflects: Lightness, luck and an open heart Your gemstone: Ruby Your flower: Larkspur Your colors: Green and red

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

o.O

Your Birthdate: July 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated. You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way. People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little. Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know. Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid Your power color: Silver Your power symbol: Square Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

COINCIDENCE COINCIDENCE I think only Richmond fully knows what I'm talking about.

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Told you my lucky number was 7.

Your Expression Number is 7

Very intelligent, you are usually thinking, introspecting, or analyzing. You have a good mind, and you are especially good at finding out the truth. Very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You tend to obsess over wisdom and hidden truths. You are likely to become a authority on any subject you undertake. Operating on a different wavelength, most people don't know you that well. Very logical and rational, at times you tend to lack emotion. So much so, that you often have times coping with emotional situations. You are not very adaptable - you may tend to be overly critical at times.

What's Your Expression Number?

Oh, my lucky number really is 7.

Sorry, was just bored. No one to play MSN games with now ):

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Mr. Brightside - The Killers

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

And I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

'Cause I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...

haven't seen you for awhile

I'm really sorry for not updating.
Been busy.

Tuesday didn't have CCA, like wow, for once.

Wednesday had 小豆豆 test. It was relatively easy. But I confirm make alot of mistakes de.
At night had tuition. Did my 6 minute speech! Tcher said it was powerful 'cause it came from the heart :)

Yesterday afternoon stayed back to attend Year 2 Class Leaders' meeting.
Ah-ha. It was quite fun, actually. To be able to voice out our opinions 'cause Mrs Chew is a really nice lady who thinks of us students also. Hehe.

Today had Physics test. But before that during the Lang Arts period I was praying very hard that there wouldn't be enough time for the Day 3 people to be pushed forward.
And yay, Ms Goh is nice LOL. So didn't present today. Next tuesday then present.
LOL.

OK physics test was.. fuckingly retarded!
If I don't flunk it's a miracle, seriously.
I didn't even know what the heck I was drawing for the ray diagrams and blah.
I seriously need help! ):

Anyway,
2E, GO DO SEL SELF AND PEER SURVEY BY 3RD OCTOBER.
The only problem is I have no idea where is the survey.
LOL.

secret?

MEME Quiz.
-.-

1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits.
3. Answer one question with one name.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme.

1. Joanne
2. Weiling
3. Myself
4. Yuching
5. Tracy
6. Eugene
7. Zeming
8. Amanda Khoo
9. Zeming again
10. My used-to-be babysitter
11. Weiren
12. Bella Swan
13. Zhijie
14. Yonglun
15. William
16. Simin
17. Tricia Chua
18. Jessica
19. Rachel
20. Jerome Tan
21. Qinghe
22. Edward Cullen
23. Amanda Chan
24. Benedict Soh LOL
25. Mingshin
26. No idea
27. Edward again
28. Weiling
29. Edward again again
30. This is highly retarded !

blogthings

Anyway I was really bored and came across this:

Your positive traits: You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with Your negative traits: Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down. Your ideal partner: Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt! Your dating style: Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another. Your seduction style: Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship. Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild. Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac. Tips for the future: Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you. Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing. Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first. Best color to attract mate: Aqua Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

I think Richmond confirm agree with some parts de. LOL.

This also:

N is for Naughty G is for Godlike M is for Misunderstood U is for Unforgettable T is for Trustworthy A is for Articulate N is for Neglected G is for Graceful

What Does Your Name Mean?

But I just realised that everytime you do this quiz again, you'll get different results.
-.-

This too(which I think most parts aren't true):

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

dance your life away

Friday was OK.
Didn't have CCA, so went to WINGS with Irene.
She made the whole thing much more interesting than normal.
Haha.

Anyway yesterday was quite a long day.
Woke up at around 7am to go to school.
For dance practice ._.
Warmed up a little first, then Ding Lao Shi came.
Did more stretching, then did exercises.

Surprisingly, I kinda enjoyed the session before the 15 minutes break.
But after the break it was more boring.
Except for the 眼神 dance and the 云步 part. The rest of the time I yawned alot.

Dad fetched me back, bathed and stuffs, then went to Amanda's house.
To do Speech & Drama. We wasted hell lot of time laughing.
Was supposed to meet Weiling at 5pm at City Hall MRT to walk around and eat dinner before going to watch the dance concert at Victoria Theatre, but because spent alot of time at Amanda's house, I didn't meet Weiling for dinner at all.
):
But it was fun at Amanda's house.
Lol.

Met Weiling, Meiyu and Abigail at City Hall's Guardian.
Bought Impact.
Met the rest, walked to Victoria Theatre.
Some roads were blocked due to the F1 Racing thing, so we took a much longer time to walk there.
On the way me and Weiling were "5 words-ing".

Reached there, got tickets, went in.

The whole thing was great.
Say I'm bias, but I don't care, those performances that Fong Lao Shi choreographed or danced in was uber great.

{The whole section below would be on the dance items in the concert, so if you have absolutely no interest in dance or anything, then don't read it.}

The first dance, Imprisonment by Viv Phua was quite okay.
The moves were refreshing, but weird. They kept lifting their skirts up, on purpose.
-_-
"Inhibited and constrained..
The cry to unleash the steoretypical role of women"

Convey by Janice Oei was quite boring. Or rather, didn't catch my attention as much, probably cause it wasn't choreographed by anyone I know, and Fong Lao Shi did not dance in this dance.
"Fact or Opinion,
True of False.
It's within a decision.
Do not use your eyes to see,
but through your heart to convey"

Next was Propulsion by Goh Chee Seng.
It was a dance by 2 ladies, and 1 of them was Fong Lao Shi!
The starting was damn cool, 'cause I was wondering how come the stage became so blur, until I realised that was this netting thing covering the stage.
I realised only when they lifted that netting thing. LOL.
But like Weiling said, the description was damn slack lah. A one-liner -.-
"Propulsion prevails with only one force"

The next one was one of the nicer ones, but sadly, not the nicest.
Hardship Quenched By Ties by Liz Fong.
Fong Lao Shi! Yay.
LOL.
4 guys danced in this dance, and 2 of them is from RV Year 4.
So alot of people from RV cheered for them.
Haha.
It was nice, alot of connecting moves between the dancers.
"In the days of a hand-cart puller....
the ties of brotherhood,
the true testament of mental power and physical strength"

Metamorphosis by Benedict Soh was almost the same as the one that my dance seniors were going to dance for their SYF.
Yes, Benedict Soh. And I think it's 'cause is he choreographed de, that's why RV people can use for SYF.
The performers danced it better than my seniors, of course.
At least now my seniors have a standard that they cannot reach easily.
"The work seeks to portray how the ever-changing society has an impact on out lives, and it is up to us to manage this change, or become prey to its malice"

And then intermission.

Next was Of Waft and Vim by Liz Fong.
It was really creative, the way the fans they used made loud sounds whenever opened or closed, so it was kind of part of the music.
There was this part where 1 lady dropped her fan, so she danced a few seconds without the fan, and then walked to the backstage, and came out with another fan after a few seconds.
But the whole thing looked like it was planned.
I mean, did the performers have telepathy or something?
"Slashes of air
Dashes of vitality
A harmony to the sheen of brocade"

Voice Over by Benedict Soh was the BEST DANCE ITEM I'VE EVER SEEN.
The main dancer was Fong Lao Shi.
It talks about heartbreak and everything.
Music was used only when there's this lady speaking in the background.
In between, Fong Lao Shi stripped to her black underwear to change clothing twice or thrice. Yeah, on stage. As in, it's part of the dance.
Anyway it wasn't the stripping that made it so nice. The stripping only made it special, 'cause this is the first dance item I've ever seen which involved changing clothes on the stage.
It was the way the lady spoke, the moves, the emotions that made it so nice.
"These fragmentary clips of self-dialogue reflect the inner emotion and memories of absence with regards to the past relationship"

Grace Leong choreographed The Fall.
I didn't even realise it was Long Lao Shi until the last part where they introduced all the choreographers and alot of RV people were cheering for her and I was wondering why was that so.
It was.. weird. People wearing nude-coloured clothing.
"Pride and temptation awaits its opportunity to sneak into the original creation. She looked, she took, she ate, and she gave. The battle is often lost at the first look. Who can resist the power of seduction?"

A very cute item by Verity Jacobsen: Second Samba.
Really very cheerful item, the performers looked like they were having fun, so yeah.
Fong Lao Shi danced in this one too.
"The rhythm never seems to surrender. Laughter, love, smiles and dance is a way of living. Whisking partners around from left to right, enjoying loving embraces and feeling the fresh sensation that is being thrown around by each individual. The celebration will only stop when the new light hits."

The last item was The Quiet Self by Yap Seok Hui.
I'm supposed to like this 'cause everyone was dressed in black. But no, I didn't like it so much, 'cause it didn't touch my heart the way Voice Over did.
"The individual self is the channel through which the soul finds expression. When our lives allow little room for personalized variation, the self goes into hiding. If tangled in the ropes of false identity and confusion, the soul cannot shine through."

OK then it was the end and my dad fetched me home and I bathed and I slept.
Sorry, video and photography wasn't allowed.
):

This afternoon went for drums and piano.
Bought Wuthering Heights.
Wondering if it's nice.

What You Got - Colby O'Donis
(feat. Akon)

Konvicted (Konvicted)
Oooh

I peeped you on the phone
Just showin' off your stone
And notice that, that pinky ring
Is right enough baby
I know you're not alone
But I could just be wrong
The way dem fellas houndin'
And sizing you up baby

And I like the way you take advantage
Of every man you love
I see, I seem to know your game girl
But I don't mind if you come and play yo thug just don't talk too much
I see, I see it so you don't have to say a word

Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin on tha spotlight
Always in tha club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop

Girl I can you want somethin' to love
That's why you hold on to everything
that pass you by
Can't resist girl, one can't lie
Now if you are here for me
Or everybody watchin' you shake
from left to right
The way you move got me hyptnotized

And I like the way you take advantage
Of every man you love
I see, I seem to know your game girl
But I don't mind if you come and play yo thug just don't talk too much
I see, (I see it) so you don't have to say a word

Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin on tha spotlight
Always in tha club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop

Our eyes away from you girl
When you get on tha flo'
And do what you do
And everybody want to come back
To that bod and kind of remind myself I'm like you
Be sure that type drive a man crazy and snatch him away from his lady
No matter how hard the man hold back
He'll end up callin' you baby
And they never really know what to do
Once you expose that thing you do
Ya had him crawlin' on his hands and knees
And ya find a way to get him out of that cheese
And why you thinkin' you're the only dude
She off in the mall livin' off of you
Lettin' errbody know she got you
But now you feel like a fool

Yeah those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin on tha spotlight
Always in tha club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Always talkin bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop

days go by

OK sorry for not updating.
Anyway this is my 300th post. Lol.

Sunday
Had piano and drums, learning new song for drums.
A song by Maroon 5, I think.
Piano, bought my Grade 8 books, what the hell.

Monday
School was boring as usual, even if something interesting happened I would have forgotten.
Went to watch Make It Happen in the evening.
The storyline was..weird.
Not as nice as Step Up or Step Up 2.
Alot of sexy bar dancing.
LOL.
But overall it was nice all the same.
:D

Tuesday
During CCA, all the aircons in Dance Studio were spoilt.
Everyone was sweating like pigs.
After awhile of the workers fiddling with the wires, the air con could woke again.
Spent that CCA session doing all sorts of somersaults and stuffs.

Yesterday
Assembly time was fun.
Had the honour of going to LT5 to attend some Cyberwellness workshop thing.
They had to separate the girls and the guys, so what else could it be about?
LOL. But the speaker was damn nice. She gave alot of her own experiences in relationships and marriage and stuffs.

After school had Science Practical Test (which was damn easy) then went to Rotary.
Came home, bathed, ate, went for tuition.
Was super tired.

Today
Voted for Zeming this morning. 19 out of 34 people in 2E voted for him. Yay.
School sucked, except for S&D, which was getting cool.

Oh, changed blogsong.

You And Me - Lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

never occured to me

this thing.
it's crazy.

and i'm not sure if it's in a good way anymore

i can't be who you are

OK I know I'm really lagging and this should have been up long ago but I don't care and here it is:


This picture was taken on 4 Sept, when I went out with the other dancers to watch the performance. I'm in black, as usual :D

Nothing much, click to enlarge, byee!

Oh, VOTE FOR ZEMING ok?

and I think I haven't posted the lyrics for my blog song, even after so long.
Sorry.

Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid, I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

random

I have no idea why I'm blogging now.
Sorry for the lack of posts and stuff.. Was lazy.
Couldn't be bothered.

Got back Progress Report today, was super sian-ed by my Chinese results.
Made my eyes sore, because of a damn C5 that appeared out of all the As ):

Didn't go for CCA, came home.
Surfed the net. Blah.

And was spamming chocolate-jellybeans.
That tube I bought yesterday, finito.

Tomorrow no CCA, yay.
Wang Lao Shi left for New York on Tuesday.
._.

Oh my grandmother was discharged from the hospital yesterday.
:D

Anyway, vote for Zeming for SC President!

woah..so many champions

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AERES AND MINGHAO !

In just a span of 1 week, so many people got birthday lorh.
2th Sept - Gregory's birthday
4th Sept - Clement's birthday
5th Sept - Joel's and Amanda's birthday
6th Sept - Aeres' and Minghao's birthday

-_-
LOL.

Anyway later going hospital to visit grandmother I think.
OK I'm off to eat my breakfast and continue watching the Jap version of Hana Kimi alr.
Bye !

dearest dedication

This afternoon I was getting fking bored so I took out the DVD that Szenee lent me.
The Japanese version of Hana Kimi.
Not bad, just that the character acting as Quan looks kinda crap.
The rest of the characters look nicer than the Taiwan version. LOL.

Anyway after that I ate dinner, then left the house to give mooncake to relatives.
Sort of to see-here-see-there-talk-here-talk-there kind of thing.

Then went to visit my grandmother, who was in the hospital. ):
The last time I went her house, which was on Thursday, my mother kept mentioning that she lost a lot of weight. My grandmother, I mean. Apparently she lost 5 to 6kg, from 51kg to 45kg.
That is alot. To me anyway.

So on the same day my aunt took my grandmother to see the doctor.
The next day my mom took her for X-ray.
The results showed that there was a patch in her left lung, which kinda meant lung infection.
And then she took a blood test, normal people the blood level is 14 (I think), but hers was 9.3.
Which was very low.

Hence she was admitted into SGH although she kept requesting not to.
According to my mom, she was very stubborn, and she believes that she doesn't need the help of the stuffs in the hospital. Lucky my mom was around, and insisted that she did as she was told by the doctor.

So yeah, they had to test everything. My grandmother urine, they also want test, shit also want test, cough out the phlegm also want test. Zzz.
They are trying to find out what is the cause for the weight loss and the really low blood level.

Went to the hospital with my dad, saw my mom, my uncle and his family, and my grandmother's friends. They were chatting and stuffs.

So sad seh. My grandmother used to be bustling with life, full of laughter, but now she seems so weak, so lost. I want this bad illness to go away D:
Well, she was in Block 7 of SGH, and 7 is my lucky number, so I hope the good luck around will help her, make her back to what she used to be, 'cause I want my good old grandmother back!

To my grandmother:
GET WELL SOON !!!

homework for lunch?

OK I do not regret not going for P6 Class Outing.
Heh.

Finished the 2 Bio papers, Maths Assignment 13, and my Lang Arts essay is 3/4 done.
So now I'm only left with 1/4 of Lang Arts essay, 2 Physics papers and History worksheet.

And I'm kinda taking a break now.
Was bored.
So surfed the net.

You Are An ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. In love, you are a smooth talker and incorrigible flirt. While you get into relationships easily, you don't tend to stick around when times get tough. At work, you do well in groups. You keep everyone laughing through difficult tasks. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor. How you see yourself: Capable, fair, and efficient When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, stubborn, and silly

What's Your Personality Type?

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love. You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet. And while many people may claim they would choose love too... You're one of the few who would really do it.

Would You Choose Love or Money?

Nothing much, haven't eaten lunch, and can't find anything to eat.
):
I'm hungry zz. And my left knee hurts. -.- Damn dance.

woke up on the wrong side of my body

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL AND AMANDA !

I slept on my left arm last night. So basically now I'm partially disabled.
Damn it the whole arm is numb. -.-

And then I got a stupid shock of my life when I realised someone was calling me and when I looked at the screen I saw his name.
I didn't pick it up.
LOL.

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Last night was relatively OK.
Damn Weiling, went for her CIP, so there wasn't any incentive for me to leave the house to meet up with her to eat dinner together or something. So I almost didn't go -.-
But I went, in the end. Reached City Hall MRT at exactly 7pm.
Found Weiling, found the others.
The seniors said we couldn't wear shorts and slack stuff but they still wear ._.
So dumb, rofl.

Walked to Victoria Theatre, waited outside for awhile.
Got tickets, went in, started watching.
The performance was quite nice, ULTRA NEAT !
And everything kept reminding me of Acceleration zzz.
The thing ended around 10pm, and when they introduced all the performers and big shot people, Weiling realised one of the big shot people was Ding Lao Shi and she started screaming into my face.
"HEY THAT'S DING LAO SHI RIGHT OMG HOW COME I DIDN'T SEE OMGOMG..."
-____-
What the heck.
LOL.

Left the theater, got my dad to pick me up, went home, blah-ed.

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Anyway I don't think I shall go for the Primary 6 Class Outing today.
'Cause I'm damn sian and have a mountain shitload of work to do.
But I don't even think I'll be doing it anyway. Hahah.
Sorry for not going lah.

Tonight I still have to go to some relative's house to give mooncake.

Bye.

i don't mind being in your shoes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLEMENT !

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG! =D

OK so I kinda regret watching Constantine last night. Not that it was scary.. but well, I knew I had school in the morning today yet I stayed up so late.

I mean, dance practice was supposed to start at 9am, but my dad had to go work early and if I wanted to catch a ride I had to wake up at 6am. Damn.
I could have gone to school myself, and wake up later, but it'll only be around half an hour later cos public transport from my house to the school takes a long time.

Reached school, Dance Studio wasn't open so waited for someone to go get the keys and open it. Mrs Ling did.
Went in, crapped around, and all the girls decided not to bun up their hair(except for Anna and Meiyu, Anna 'cause she tied it up damn early in the morning, Meiyu 'cause she came late, was super flustered and did not notice that there were so many ponytails swishing around).

Coach came, did some warm ups, and then Acceleration-ed about 1 million times.
Jeez, she said she wanted to build up our stamina.

But all in all it was OK, really, 'cause she released us about half an hour to 45 minutes early. Hah!

Came home, super tired, cooked some instant noodles, bathed, yeah and came to use the computer. Later still have to watch some dance performance at Victoria Theater with CCA mates.

Homework still not touched. Crap.
And I currently have nothing else to do, I mean, besides homework, so I shall do a damn quiz.
LOL.

Name one person who made you smile today:
Meiyu. Heh.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Waiting for Dance Studio to open.
-.-

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Bathing.

What is something that happened to you in 1994?
I became a champion when I beat millions of sperms in reaching the egg.

What is the last thing you said aloud?
"Leave the 30 bucks on the printer, thanks."

How many different things did you drink today?
Healthy water! And instant noodles soup ._.

What color is your hairbrush?
Pink ! LOL

What was the last thing you bought?
Kinder Bueno :D

What was the last gift you received for your birthday?
I cannot recall O_o

What color is your front door?
Brown.

Where do you keep your change?
My wallet.

What was the weather like today?
Sunny, and then rainy, and then cloudy.

What is the best ice cream flavor?
Vanilla, but I have recently started liking Strawberry alot.

What is something you are excited about?
Nothing much actually. I just can't be bothered about anything right now.

When was the last rainbow you saw?
Kinda forgot. Hee.

What size shoe do you wear?
Uhm, U.S. Size 6. Or 7.

Do you have a little sister?
I wish, really.

Are you very random?
No idea.

Do you want to cut your hair?
YES. It's getting thick ): But for the sake of the damn performance I shall wait until it's over then I'm going to my hairdresser immediately.

Do you have some bad habits?
No one's perfect yo.

Do you watch The O.C.?
Heard about it, but nope.

Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
Nope.

Do you know any Stevens?
Nope O.o unless you count from books. Then I know alot.
LOL.

Do you make up your own words?
No idea.

Are you ticklish?
Who doesn't know that I'm super sensitive to tickles, especially at the waist?
Super sensitive.

Are you typically a jealous person?
Average lah. LOL.

Do you have plans for today?
Slack, drag myself out to watch the performance, drag myself home, sleep.

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "J":
Jiarui!

Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
Weiling.

What did the last text message you received say?
"Finally can sms alrd?:D" -Irene.
Unfortunately no, so I didn't reply her.
Tomorrow then I can start spamming!

Do you chew on your straws?
Sometimes, but not obsessively.

Do you have curly hair?
Mine should be considered straight bah.

What is the next concert you're going to?
Some dance concert later.

Who is the worst person in your life?
No comments.

How many times have you cussed today?
If it means speaking vulgarities, then I've lost count.

What is something you say a lot?
"LOL".

What is the last thing you ate?
Instant noodles.

PhotoPox. com or MySpacePhotos. com?
Idk.

Do you have work tomorrow?
No. Maybe in a decade.

Is marriage in your future?
LOL depends. Most probably lah.

When was the last time you said "I love you"?
Zzz. Some months back.

What should you be doing now?
Homework.

Do you have a nickname?
Tang :]

Are you a heavy sleeper?
Kinda. x_X

When was the last time you used a skateboard?
In a computer game.

What is the best movie you've seen in the past three weeks?
Sad to say, I didn't watch any movie in the past three weeks. LOL.
But I watched alot of DVDs, and Step Up 2 and Jumper are still the best.

When was the last time you did the dishes?
Just now. My brother kept bugging me. Ugh.

Are you currently depressed?
No idea.

speed it up, yo!

invisible and indivisible


Yesterday changed blogskin and blogsong.
Love the song lots. Heh.

Today Dad dragged me and my brothers to Science Center.
Nothing much , 'cept saw the the F1 cars.





Saw Weiling there too. She was there to do her CIP. And she was damn surprised to find me there.
Haha.

Ate at the cafe there, then came home at around 4 plus.

Still haven't touched any of my holiday homework.
I still can't figure out why teachers always think that they are the one and only teacher in the goddamn school. Give out homework as if they'll be forced to eat cow shit if they don't give enough.

hopeless is my middle name

"And if you're trying to win her over... you probably shouldn't treat her like that."
"I'm not trying to win her over."
"Then don't lead her on."

reality hit.. for awhile

i know i don't stand a chance.
not now.
not ever.

sing till your lungs burst

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREGORY !

Ultraviolet - Stiff Dylans

She is a wave and she's breaking
She's a problem to solve
And in that circle she's making
I will always revolve

And on her sight
These eyes depend
Invisible and indivisible

That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

Now is a phase and it's changing
It's rotating us all
Thought we're safe but we're dangling
And it's too far to survive the fall

And this I know
It will not bend
Invisible and indivisible

That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane
Travel unraveling through my brain
Cold when I am denied it
Your light is ultraviolet
Ultraviolet

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THANK YOU YEWHUI WHO MANAGED TO SENT ME ULTRAVIOLET !
yay yay yay

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUCHING !

Didn't do much today, slacked for the whole morning and afternoon.
Decided to go to audi for a few minutes, but it was damn sian, so stopped.
Went to clear my wardrobe, and threw away 12 shirts.
I haven't even cleared it properly yet.
Holidays are boring.
):

Anyone has Ultraviolet by Stiff Dylans please send me, thanks !