Monday, June 29, 2009

did someone break your heart inside

21 Guns - Green Day

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

You and I

Saturday, June 27, 2009

up in my world of fantasies

Slacked the entire yesterday and today. Not much progress on work. I hate school.

D:<

On a lighter note, Christina reached Brisbane already!!! I really really wanna be there with her, man. There's winter there (do I love winters!!!), there's no RV, no triple Sciences, no school starting in 2 days, no undone homework, no fucking screwed education system. (It's so screwed I don't know how to explain it.)

Damn. 3 and a half more years (!!!). I'll wait. I don't care.

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly Fly Away - Miley and Billy Ray Cyrus

Friday, June 26, 2009

i've been wrecked ever since

There are so many things I gotta blog about but I don't know where or how to start. Zzz.

Anyway other than the Physics video, I haven't started on any holiday homework so good luck to me. And there's only 3 days left (since freaking MOE insists on not extending the holidays) so WHAT AM I STILL DOING HERE?!

Nevermind anyway I didn't end up finding that motivation I wanted to, so I keep slacking at home ): Went to the first two Dance practices of June holidays on 18 and 19. The AYG Dance is freaking slack, LOL.

Blah blah blah and there wasn't CCA on Monday so I finally got to watch Terminator Salvation!



I know I'm lag but whatever. Have always wanted to watch it but never got the chance to. Well I think the movie was good. Graphics, story line and all. But it was quite short ._. And is life going to be that bleak in 9 years?

Tuesday had self-prac, that was when Mrs Ling announced that CCA was cancelled! But AYG still had to go on, so yesterday had to go back to school for AYG rehearsal. Damn was it stupid, lol.

Anyway Wednesday night, went back for tuition. It's been long. But teacher just came back from US or something so had to be quarantined and hence we had a relief teacher. I THINK SHE HATES ME, LOL. The back-to-back lessons were unbearably boring. I'm looking forward to next week's!!!

After Dance yesterday, I went to visit my dad at his office, haha. Man, was it big. Well I think he deserved that workplace :} Then when he was done with work, we went to the airport together. To see my (used-to-be) babysitter's daughter off. She's exactly 7 years older than me, and she's going to Brisbane for Uni ): I'll miss her badly.

Her mom was freaking sad, but I told her it's sooner or later when the butterfly flies away.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

as the tape plays in the thunderstorm

Butterfly Fly Away - Miley and Billy Ray Cyrus

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

Sunday, June 21, 2009

acceptance

I saw my new timetable. I just died.
Do I have to remind myself just one more time, how much I hate sciences?

WHY DID I FUCKING CHOOSE THIS?

mashimaro. says:
sucks, but when has life been fair lol.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

eyes watering

So last Friday had dental appointment, I love my dentist she's damn cool. Dined at Jack's Place with family, very full. Saturday- I forgot what happened on Saturday. Most probably 'cause I still didn't do anything meaningful. Sunday went drums, no piano.

Yesterday, I finally finally got someone to watch Hannah Montana with me! My eldest bro, LOL. What a joke.



Anyway I think the movie's not bad. Way better than her TV series.

And then after the movie my bro went to play pool with his friends so I was supposed to go home. But restless me don't feel like going home so I got Rachel to go out with me! Oh, and Eugene Wong. HAHA. Super last minute, but they were super sporting :)

Went to West Mall's Burger King. Supposed to discuss stuffs, and study (?). In the end we talked, talked crap, talked more crap, and just (using Eugene's words) "stoned there in silence". It was kinda stupid, actually. But going out with normal people occasionally, people who don't expect, feels good.

Today was time wasting, as usual. Hopefully I'll find the motivation to do work tomorrow. Hopefully.

Eminem IS pretty good.

Friday, June 12, 2009

truth be told

I wonder whats on your mind
Sometimes they say love is blind
Maybe that's why the first time I dotted your eye
You ain't see a sign

Or maybe you did
Maybe you like me and stuff

You are the word I am looking for when
I'm trying to describe how I feel inside
And the right one just won't come to my mind

Crazy Over You - Eminem

of all the things I've felt I've never really showed

On Monday I got to stay at home so I re-read The Kite Runner again. To refresh my memory, if not it's damn difficult to discuss with the rest 'cause I'll keep forgetting.

Tuesday morning 7am I was knocking on Yuching's door (LOL). Before that, at 6am plus I gave her a morning call HAHAHA. Anyway played Wii- Tony Hawk, what else?- and then got a lil' bored, so we watched a DVD. I forgot the title but it's about some crazy mother-in-law. Super hilarious, quite cool. Lol. Then watched Malcolm in the Middle! It's damn classic, man. Jiarui came later on, after her CCA in the morning, and we continued watching. Played Wii for a few more hours, then three of us went to meet William at Somerset MRT.

William was super joke siah. Anyway went Orchard Cathay and caught Dance! Subaru.



It was rather good, I'd say. Quite touching. But the black cat kept appearing everywhere so it was rather weird, LOL. It was William's birthday, so we paid for his ticket as his birthday present. During the movie, his house keys dropped out of his pocket and he didn't manage to find it. Wth lol. So he went home key-less.

Wednesday went to Shiyi's house with Mengying to do Physics project. AND I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT WE COMPLETED EVERYTHING IN ONE DAY!! Omg doing project with PRC is freaking productive, LOL. We took about 12 hours, including lunch time slack time TV time. Haha. I'm super happy 'cause that's the only work I'd done.

Yesterday did Elit project, again. Met at Yishun with Jieru, Weiren, Eugene, Calvin @ 8am. Camped at Macs for breakfast again, then did alot of discussions.. Just that none of our discussions were noted down. Jeez. Darren came at 10.30am from his CCA and we went to his house. Did more work than last Saturday's meeting, but as usual, we weren't exactly very productive. During lunch we watched Mr. Bean, and from there onwards we slacked big-time. Listened to music, watched videos, blasted music and daidi-ed until everyone was rather sian LOL.

Wanted to watch movie, like in cinema, but everybody kept discussing until super late and we couldn't catch the movie timing. So we thought of watching one of Darren's DVD. And somebody suggested Horror- The Ring 2.

Oh dear God. The movie sucked. LOL. Argh.

Whatever. WHY IS TAKING OF PELHAM 123 NC16 OMG SIAN!

Gives You Hell - All-American Rejects

I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place
And you're still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence, love?
And where's that shiny car?
And did it ever get you far?
You never seemed so tense, love
I've never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell
I hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Yeah, where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

Truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see what you've done to me
You can take back your memories, they're no good to me
And here's all your lies, you can look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look that you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
(Hope it gives you hell!)
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
(Hope it gives you hell!)

When you hear this song and you sing along, well you'll never tell
And you're the fool, I'm just as well, hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along, I hope that it puts you through hell

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

the china boy who won PESA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM YANG YI!

Monday, June 8, 2009

whirlpools of rain and tears, mixed together

It always hurts more to have and lose than to not have in the first place.

Rahim Khan — The Kite Runner

Sunday, June 7, 2009

you can't have the friggin' cake and eat it, alright?

(Though I think it's stupid if you have it but can't eat it. There's no freaking point.)

Anyway, Thursday was good, shopping with Weiling was damn funny. Lunch was fabulous too- my favourite Jia Xiang Mian, again. I got all the stuffs I wanted to buy from the same shop in Vivo, wow. That's stupid, LOL. After that decided to watch a movie; didn't watch Hannah Montana because Weiling hated that girl.



Yeah, we watched this, no I'm not kidding. Before that, we had 3 hours of shopping and walking around aimlessly because the movie timing was so awkward. Whatever, I think the show was pretty good, albeit I didn't understand some stuffs because it was a 'lil confusing but on the whole it was still OK. People, if you watched this and actually got it, like everything, explain them to me!

Friday was slacking at home, watched some DVDs, whatever.

Yesterday was pretty much.. a waste of a good 'ole Saturday. Had tremendous lack of sleep 'cause had to meet the Elit people at 7am at Yishun MRT. I'm sorry, it was my idea. Like, LOL. But I thought we could meet early, do finish the shit earlier and then go home. Turned out, Calvin didn't even come, Darren was still rushing home from his chalet, so we couldn't do shit with only two-thirds of our group there.

So Jieru, Weiren, Eugene and I camped at Northpoint Centre's McDonalds for pretty much the whole morning. Ate breakfast, Jieru became a champion when she tried to open her packet that contained a knife, fork and Hotcakes syrup. The entire syrup thing flew into somewhere so unimaginable. Wow. Then attempted to do a 'lil work, it was a failed attempt, so we went back to talking cock. Zzz.

Walked around the shopping centre and blah, didn't buy anything, blah blah, finally could communicate with Darren so we went back to our favourite place- the same place we'd been hanging out the entire morning- for lunch. McWings was good, it calmed me down AND gave me some energy.

Took bus to Darren's house, missed a stop, walked back, overshot, walked back again, ugh, on the whole it was excruciatingly irritating.

Turned out, the project meeting was even a project meeting at all; talked crap played PSP played Maple played Truth or Dare played Shoot Shag Marry played Daidi, and according to Darren we completed the first part of our project. Nineteen more parts to go. Sweet. Jeez.

Darren's mom ordered Pizza Hut for dinner, lol. After that, went home. Waited effing long for the bus- his house is so inaccessible. Tsk, LOL.

Went home, found out something so shocking :O I feel so unjustified! Not for myself, whatever. I'm gonna make this right, I'll try.

Today was a usual Sunday. Drums, piano, blah.

I'm an island.

Ever Fallen In Love - Stiff Dylans

You spurn my natural emotions
Make me feel like dirt and I'm hurt
And if I start a commotion
I run the risk of losing you and that's worse

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

I can't see much of a future
Unless we find out who's to blame, what a shame
And we won't be together much longer
Unless we realize that we are the same

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

You spurn my natural emotions
Make me feel like dirt and I'm hurt
And if I start a commotion
I only end up losing you and that's worse

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

Shouldn't have fallen in love with
Ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with

Thursday, June 4, 2009

it's so weird when boys quarrel

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QINGHE!!

Well on Tuesday, I didn't go out as originally planned. The weather was so good and I slept till the cows came home, so yeah. The only time I went out was jogging with Dad, around the neighbourhood. Fun ^^

Yesterday was madness. 2 to 3 hours of Chemistry in the morning and 2 to 3 hours of Physics in the afternoon. In between, ate at my favourite Vivo's Sarawak Kolo Mee place, also known as Jia Xiang Mian! Mm, yums. Then walked around Vivo (again) with Shiyi and Mengying. I never seem to get bored of that place eh. After school, man, I had absolutely no idea I was that tired. After dinner, I went home, bathed, and slept immediately. Jeez.

This morning woke up bright and early AND happy because Weiling's my saviour- she gives me motivation to go out. Shopping yay! At Vivo. Where else? Nah kidding, we're going to go all over Singapore hees x)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

15

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE WONG!!

Monday, June 1, 2009

baby you could blow my heart up

First official day of June Holidays. Happy? Perhaps. Bored? Maybe. Overwhelmed? A lil'. Freedom? Definitely.

Woke up this morning to the sounds of birds chirping and cars driving along the roads. There was no Mom nagging, no Dad waking me up, no brothers acting like 'tards.

Woah, the peace.

Nah, just kidding. My family ain't that bad. But I do like the quietness, though. In a family of five, it's so rare to get these moments.

So of course, I woke up to a great day. A great day to slack! Settled some homework stuffs, felt like a good ole' kid so I went to do housework! LOL. After that, piano-ed for awhile. It's been long. Lunch was instant noodles (it was the only thing I know how to cook ^^). DVD-ed for awhile too, then it was Maple time! Honestly, I think I was too bored. Aimed to level up from 20%, but when I reached 60%, Maple seemed dull again.

Holidays make me speechless. On one hand, I feel so free and finally having time for myself, on the other hand, it can be real boring at times.



Anyway Night At the Museum 2 on Saturday night was funny, like I expected. Not bad.

Cut my hair on Sunday. Like, finally! I didn't know cutting hair could be so sensational. Woohoo. Bought more clothes (like I'm not broke enough), but I'm still going shopping tomorrow.

If worse comes to worse and I really have no more money left ($___$), at the most I'll just go somewhere and observe people or something. Sheesh. Whatever. Gotta get out of the house.

Starstruck - Lady Gaga feat. Flo-Rida

Groove slam, work it back
Filter that, baby bump that track
Groove slam, work it back
Filter that, baby bump that track

Groove slam, work it back
Space Cowboy just play that track
Gaga in the room, so starstruck
Cherry cherry cherry cherry, boom boom

Rollin' up to the club on the weekend
Stylin' out to the beat that you're freakin'
Fantasize on the track that you're tweakin'
Blow my heart up

Put your hands on my waist, pull the fader
Run it back with original flavor
Queue me up, I'm the twelve on your table
I'm so starstruck

So starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?

Baby now that we're alone, got a request
Would you make me number one on your playlist?
Got your dirty headphones with the left side on
Wanna scratch it back and forth, back and forth, uhuh

Put your hands on my waist, pull the fader
Run it back with original flavor
Put the breakdown first
Up into the chorus to the verse, bick a bick a reverse

So starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?

Hey, lived all my life really, really is that him?
I haven't seen here before, and she got all them big rims
It's it like cash flow, my baby don't trip
Should shawty say hand over your signature right here

Like a just a dotted line, and I'm supposed to sign
How she add it up, a fanatic and I think it's going down
She's so starstruck, the gal all stuck
I shoulda had an overdose on too many Starbucks

Ain't neva seen a balla, paper that stack taller
Stunna soon let the top back on that Chevy impala
Hummers and all that fully loaded with two ballers
What do you call that when you're shawty with two daughters?

But that's another chapter, slow lover bachelor
I don't know me, that's part of the baby actor
Complete swagger, there go the dagger
Got what she want, shawty happily ever after

I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?

Groove slam, work it back
Filter that, baby bump that track
Groove slam, work it back
Filter that, baby bump that track

Groove slam, work it back
Filter that, baby bump that track
Groove slam, work it back
Filter that, baby bump that track

Baby now that we're alone, got a request
Would you make me number one on your playlist?
Got your dirty headphones with the left side on
Wanna scratch it back and forth, back and forth, uhuh

Put your hands on my waist, pull the fader
Run it back with original flavor
Put the breakdown first
Up into the chorus to the verse, I'm so, I'm so

Starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?
I'm so starstruck
Baby could you blow my heart up?

I'm so, I'm so