When I looked my worst, you could make me feel my best.
How did you manage to do that?
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
i believe
Today's Saturday and it wasn't simple.
Just came back from my babysitter (from young)'s house. My dad and I went to visit them with Bak gua, for CNY. It was so weird seeing them again. When we said our "hello"s, it felt like something was missing. I think everybody just grew older and got alot busier. We forgot how to communicate.
Anyway we had small talk and I felt things going awkward when we had to resort to talking about movies and talking about the National Geography show on TV. It was pathetic, sort of. Whatever happened? I used to be so close with them, stayed overnight for weeks during the holidays, that kind of stuffs. Yet today when they offered to let me stay overnight tonight, I gave the excuses- homework, tests, etc. Which one is more important- my second family or work? I can't decide.
I miss you alot, Christina. You're like an older sister to me, a sister I've never had. It's so hard to see you grow old and become an adult. It's so hard to accept the fact that one day I'll be like you, experiencing my future. It's even harder to foresee that one day we won't contact each other anymore, for the world is changing, and so is everybody else.
I don't want that to happen. I want to savage whatever I can.
On the way home my dad asked me what I'll be doing in 5 years' time. I didn't want to think about things like that. I didn't want to think about growing old, 'cause I'm scared.
Tonight will be a drag, tonight is depressing.
Just came back from my babysitter (from young)'s house. My dad and I went to visit them with Bak gua, for CNY. It was so weird seeing them again. When we said our "hello"s, it felt like something was missing. I think everybody just grew older and got alot busier. We forgot how to communicate.
Anyway we had small talk and I felt things going awkward when we had to resort to talking about movies and talking about the National Geography show on TV. It was pathetic, sort of. Whatever happened? I used to be so close with them, stayed overnight for weeks during the holidays, that kind of stuffs. Yet today when they offered to let me stay overnight tonight, I gave the excuses- homework, tests, etc. Which one is more important- my second family or work? I can't decide.
I miss you alot, Christina. You're like an older sister to me, a sister I've never had. It's so hard to see you grow old and become an adult. It's so hard to accept the fact that one day I'll be like you, experiencing my future. It's even harder to foresee that one day we won't contact each other anymore, for the world is changing, and so is everybody else.
I don't want that to happen. I want to savage whatever I can.
On the way home my dad asked me what I'll be doing in 5 years' time. I didn't want to think about things like that. I didn't want to think about growing old, 'cause I'm scared.
Tonight will be a drag, tonight is depressing.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
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