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i tell myself that i shouldn't care about you anymore, and that i should just feel indifferent towards you.
i'm saying that i should ignore any kind of signs that you give me, since it'll just be wishful thinking on my part.
i'm saying that i shouldn't let myself be used by you, since it's not like i'm gonna get something in return.
i'm saying that i shouldn't remember the times we had together, since at that point we were just friends.
i'm saying that i should totally forget about you, since it'll just hurt me more if i don't.
i'm saying that i should just give up, and move on.
i have to.

hell, it's always easier said than done.