Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
dance like nobody's looking
Woah, my legs are horribly tired.
Morning woke up at godly time to go school for Open House. Performed twice, both were blurs. After CCA, went Vivo with Rachel, Jieru and Gladys for lunch. Then went shopping with Rachel and Jieru from after lunch until now. Walked (and talked alot of crap) until we're all half-dead ._. At least we didn't defeat the purpose of being there, we still bought some presents. Haha.
Went home by Circle line, not bad siah. Different feeling from the trial thing. Gave up my seat for an elderly yay ^^
Watching Night at the Museum 2 tonight! :} Heard it's kick-ass funny eh.
Morning woke up at godly time to go school for Open House. Performed twice, both were blurs. After CCA, went Vivo with Rachel, Jieru and Gladys for lunch. Then went shopping with Rachel and Jieru from after lunch until now. Walked (and talked alot of crap) until we're all half-dead ._. At least we didn't defeat the purpose of being there, we still bought some presents. Haha.
Went home by Circle line, not bad siah. Different feeling from the trial thing. Gave up my seat for an elderly yay ^^
Watching Night at the Museum 2 tonight! :} Heard it's kick-ass funny eh.
Friday, May 29, 2009
what are holidays? can they be eaten as well?
Going to Yuching's house to play Wii after CCA was fabulous! Haven't played so much for a long time already. My thumbs hurt. LOL. With Szenee, Jiarui, Yuhong and Yuching (of course lah) there, it was good.
Holidays are here but I don't know why they are calling it holidays when it doesn't even serve its purpose as a HOLIDAY. Singapore's education system is horrendously screwed, upside down and inside out. This is bad. Tsk tsk.
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
Holidays are here but I don't know why they are calling it holidays when it doesn't even serve its purpose as a HOLIDAY. Singapore's education system is horrendously screwed, upside down and inside out. This is bad. Tsk tsk.
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
Thursday, May 28, 2009
same ole'
Today was bad. I don't know why. It just didn't feel.. right.
Screwed up Physics Practical. Careless.
Life sucks. I mean, yeah, we all know. But 'bleak' seems to be the perfect word. No matter how happy you have been, no matter how many times you go out with your friends and enjoy yourselves like y'all don't give a shit, you'd still end up back at square one. Times when you sit alone with your body scrunched together and you bury your head in your knees, and you know, you know that there seems to be a problem you can never solve, an answer you can never find, you just know that something's not right.
Those are the times where you don't have to put on a happy face for the world to see. 'Cause it's just so much simpler, so much easier to be alone.
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me that something's wrong
Screwed up Physics Practical. Careless.
Life sucks. I mean, yeah, we all know. But 'bleak' seems to be the perfect word. No matter how happy you have been, no matter how many times you go out with your friends and enjoy yourselves like y'all don't give a shit, you'd still end up back at square one. Times when you sit alone with your body scrunched together and you bury your head in your knees, and you know, you know that there seems to be a problem you can never solve, an answer you can never find, you just know that something's not right.
Those are the times where you don't have to put on a happy face for the world to see. 'Cause it's just so much simpler, so much easier to be alone.
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me that something's wrong
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
boy i like you just the way you are
Cross-country was _|_ LOL. At least my dad fetched me home, the car was damn shiok! And McWings, I'm coming!!
I look. And I hope to see what I want to see.
I look. And I hope to see what I want to see.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
the wind blows
I've been changing my blog songs really frequently, I know.
School was blah, as usual, CCA was all the basic stuffs today. There's Cross-country tomorrow I don't wanna go how I wish it would pour.
"Jesus when it rains how it pours"
Then I can go home and stone.
My brother just came home from Changi Airport. He looks really tired. Too tired for his own good.
Well, (almost) everything is so screwed. If only I could say it out loud.
Note to self:
Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) - Lady Gaga
Cherry cherry boom boom
Gaga
Boy, we've had a real good time
And I wish you the best on your way (eh)
I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall out of place (eh, eh)
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
I wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complique (eh)
I met somebody cute and bonny
Got each other and that's funny (eh, eh, eh)
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
I wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
(Eh, eh, eh)
(Eh, eh, eh)
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Eh, eh, eh
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Cherry cherry boom boom (eh, eh)
Oh yeah
All I can say is eh, eh
School was blah, as usual, CCA was all the basic stuffs today. There's Cross-country tomorrow I don't wanna go how I wish it would pour.
"Jesus when it rains how it pours"
Then I can go home and stone.
My brother just came home from Changi Airport. He looks really tired. Too tired for his own good.
Well, (almost) everything is so screwed. If only I could say it out loud.
Note to self:
- Dance on Friday 2.30 - 4.30pm
- Reach school at 6.30am on Saturday
- Don't attempt to attend class chalet - Got Dance
Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) - Lady Gaga
Cherry cherry boom boom
Gaga
Boy, we've had a real good time
And I wish you the best on your way (eh)
I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall out of place (eh, eh)
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
I wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complique (eh)
I met somebody cute and bonny
Got each other and that's funny (eh, eh, eh)
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
I wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
(Eh, eh, eh)
(Eh, eh, eh)
I had something that I love long, long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Eh, eh, eh
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Wish you'd never looked at me that way (eh, eh)
There's nothing else I can say (eh, eh)
Cherry cherry boom boom (eh, eh)
Oh yeah
All I can say is eh, eh
Monday, May 25, 2009
we've just wasted time
Yeah so last Saturday went out to have big feast for dinner 'cause my grandfather struck TOTO! ^_^ The food was fabulous.
Sunday was as usual, yada yada, bought some clothes and books, blah.
Today was effing hot, I felt like dying in school. Seriously, Wesley and I can totally see the heat wave from where we are sitting. Thank god for teachers like Amelia Lee and Mr Liu :}
Walao I want container classroom leh. Everyday go school like go sauna. School uniform makes it worse ): I can't stand the heat, LOL. I'd rather freeze than burn to death.
I'm stupid I submitted the OBS form with picture and everything except for parent's consent.
My brother is mad he's gonna camp overnight at Changi Airport with his mates. "Do project", he says. What is his problem ._.
So. As I was thinking...
Sunday was as usual, yada yada, bought some clothes and books, blah.
Today was effing hot, I felt like dying in school. Seriously, Wesley and I can totally see the heat wave from where we are sitting. Thank god for teachers like Amelia Lee and Mr Liu :}
Walao I want container classroom leh. Everyday go school like go sauna. School uniform makes it worse ): I can't stand the heat, LOL. I'd rather freeze than burn to death.
I'm stupid I submitted the OBS form with picture and everything except for parent's consent.
My brother is mad he's gonna camp overnight at Changi Airport with his mates. "Do project", he says. What is his problem ._.
So. As I was thinking...
Saturday, May 23, 2009
i think that you are beautiful
OK I'm gonna update. Zzz.
Last Sunday I attended a new drum class, or rather, switched classes. From the 2pm one to the 1pm one. 'Cause Yamaha wants to dissolve the 2pm class (due to only 2 students left) so they can start an entirely new class at 2pm to get more money. I mean, what'd you expect?
Anyway there's this guy in the class that was around my age, or maybe a 'lil older, who was sitting beside me, that played damn well lah! I was damn impressed X_X After being in Yamaha for 3 hours, when it was 4pm and time to attend my Piano, I was effing tired. Then I tied up my hair, and when my eyes could finally see something clearly (and not being covered by my fringe), I felt super awake. So I know what's the culprit now ._.
School was blah, results were blah-er, it's super sian. At least we watched Man of the Year during Lang Arts. Not bad.
CCA yesterday was.. damn stupid. Had rehearsal at LT1. Damn screwed. Saw so many people I know. Felt like smacking their smiling faces LOL. No lah, just kidding.
Last night I watched Angels & Demons with my family!
Well, it was a Friday, there was PE and CCA, so by the time I got home from school I wanted to plunge down into my bed and sleep already. But I couldn't, so I forced myself to remain awake, went to bathed, chiong-ed dinner, then left for J8 to watch the movie.
What could I say, the movie was overwhelming, LOL. It was good, and I'm happy that Imma freethinker (when I was young I used to spell that as freetinkle, LOL) and I do not have to attend any church and stuffs. Plus the fact that I don't live in a town full of churches and where churches ruled the world. Hee.
After the movie, came home, and it was I-don't-know-what time already, but all I knew was that I was gonna fly away from reality anytime soon. So I went straight to my fantasy world.
This morning got dragged out of bed at some godly hour to go for the Circle-Line Discovery thing. I saw all the 5 Circle-line stations (so far) already, which are Marymount, Bishan, Lorong Chuan, Serangoon, Bartley, and they are gonna commence revenue service soon! Like, mid-2009.
But I want Buona Vista that side the Circle-line to come out more quickly! If not it'll be torture to go to school everyday when we've shifted to the new campus, 'cause my dad doesn't want to drive me all the way to Boon Lay already ):
Came home, slacked, then went J8 to eat Pizza Hut for lunch, yum. At Bishan MRT station, there were people doing Flag Day! I wanna do Flag Day too. Haven't been doing it for a long time already, I kind of miss it. It's kind of satisfying to help people. LOL.
Spent the entire afternoon slacking, but hey, I did try to start on my essay for tuition. Just that I kind of ran out of brain juice halfway and I stopped and got distracted and starting slacking again. And I haven't got back to the essay ever since. Whoops.
People are getting too flawed- being selfish and bitter and heartless. But I'm gonna believe in you, probably.
Anyway, movies to catch:
She's So Lovely - Scouting For Girls
I love the way she fills her clothes
She looks just like them girls in Vogue
I love the way she plays it cool
I think that she is beautiful
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's pretty, a fitty
She's got a boyfriend though and that's a pity
She's flirty, turned thirty
Ain't that the age a girl gets really dirty?
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
I love the way she bites her lip
I love the way she shakes them hips
I love the way she makes me drool
I think that she is beautiful
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely
A stunner, I wonder
Was she this fit when she was 10 years younger?
Come see me, discreetly
She said she's got a trick or two to teach me
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
I think that you are lovely
I think that you are lovely
I think that you are lovely
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are beautiful
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
Last Sunday I attended a new drum class, or rather, switched classes. From the 2pm one to the 1pm one. 'Cause Yamaha wants to dissolve the 2pm class (due to only 2 students left) so they can start an entirely new class at 2pm to get more money. I mean, what'd you expect?
Anyway there's this guy in the class that was around my age, or maybe a 'lil older, who was sitting beside me, that played damn well lah! I was damn impressed X_X After being in Yamaha for 3 hours, when it was 4pm and time to attend my Piano, I was effing tired. Then I tied up my hair, and when my eyes could finally see something clearly (and not being covered by my fringe), I felt super awake. So I know what's the culprit now ._.
School was blah, results were blah-er, it's super sian. At least we watched Man of the Year during Lang Arts. Not bad.
CCA yesterday was.. damn stupid. Had rehearsal at LT1. Damn screwed. Saw so many people I know. Felt like smacking their smiling faces LOL. No lah, just kidding.
Last night I watched Angels & Demons with my family!
Well, it was a Friday, there was PE and CCA, so by the time I got home from school I wanted to plunge down into my bed and sleep already. But I couldn't, so I forced myself to remain awake, went to bathed, chiong-ed dinner, then left for J8 to watch the movie.
What could I say, the movie was overwhelming, LOL. It was good, and I'm happy that Imma freethinker (when I was young I used to spell that as freetinkle, LOL) and I do not have to attend any church and stuffs. Plus the fact that I don't live in a town full of churches and where churches ruled the world. Hee.
After the movie, came home, and it was I-don't-know-what time already, but all I knew was that I was gonna fly away from reality anytime soon. So I went straight to my fantasy world.
This morning got dragged out of bed at some godly hour to go for the Circle-Line Discovery thing. I saw all the 5 Circle-line stations (so far) already, which are Marymount, Bishan, Lorong Chuan, Serangoon, Bartley, and they are gonna commence revenue service soon! Like, mid-2009.
But I want Buona Vista that side the Circle-line to come out more quickly! If not it'll be torture to go to school everyday when we've shifted to the new campus, 'cause my dad doesn't want to drive me all the way to Boon Lay already ):
Came home, slacked, then went J8 to eat Pizza Hut for lunch, yum. At Bishan MRT station, there were people doing Flag Day! I wanna do Flag Day too. Haven't been doing it for a long time already, I kind of miss it. It's kind of satisfying to help people. LOL.
Spent the entire afternoon slacking, but hey, I did try to start on my essay for tuition. Just that I kind of ran out of brain juice halfway and I stopped and got distracted and starting slacking again. And I haven't got back to the essay ever since. Whoops.
People are getting too flawed- being selfish and bitter and heartless. But I'm gonna believe in you, probably.
Anyway, movies to catch:
- Star trek (with Stan)
- Ramen girl (maybe, with Richie?)
- Night at the Museum 2 (with my family next week LOL)
- The conspiracy
- Ghosts of Girlfriends past
- Duplicity
- Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen
- Fighting
- The Taking of Pelham 123
- Terminator Salvation
She's So Lovely - Scouting For Girls
I love the way she fills her clothes
She looks just like them girls in Vogue
I love the way she plays it cool
I think that she is beautiful
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely
She's pretty, a fitty
She's got a boyfriend though and that's a pity
She's flirty, turned thirty
Ain't that the age a girl gets really dirty?
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
I love the way she bites her lip
I love the way she shakes them hips
I love the way she makes me drool
I think that she is beautiful
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely
A stunner, I wonder
Was she this fit when she was 10 years younger?
Come see me, discreetly
She said she's got a trick or two to teach me
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
I think that you are lovely
I think that you are lovely
I think that you are lovely
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are lovely (You are)
I think that you are beautiful
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely, she's so lovely
She's so lovely
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
How we'll make it through this
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
too close for comfort
Stop.
It's definitely exhausting being someone I'm not. I'm tired of it. Yet everyday, I still go to school with that sickening plastic smile on my face.
A mask that people can see through easily, but they too, pretend everything's OK.
Since when has the world turned into something so unrecognizable, so fake and foreign?
Life wasn't supposed to be like this. I got cheated so badly. Cheated into arriving in this place. Now I don't know where to go. Should I run away?
It has always been them, against us.
Now, it's me, against the rest of the world.
Just because I want to learn, I want to fucking figure out, how to smile from deep within my heart again.
The Show - Lenka
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot
To be something I'm not
I'm a fool, out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spot light
The people follow the signs
And synchronize in time
It's a joke, nobody knows
They've got a ticket to the show
Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Dum de dum, da dum de dum
Just enjoy the show
Dum de dum, da dum de dum
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
It's definitely exhausting being someone I'm not. I'm tired of it. Yet everyday, I still go to school with that sickening plastic smile on my face.
A mask that people can see through easily, but they too, pretend everything's OK.
Since when has the world turned into something so unrecognizable, so fake and foreign?
Life wasn't supposed to be like this. I got cheated so badly. Cheated into arriving in this place. Now I don't know where to go. Should I run away?
It has always been them, against us.
Now, it's me, against the rest of the world.
Just because I want to learn, I want to fucking figure out, how to smile from deep within my heart again.
The Show - Lenka
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot
To be something I'm not
I'm a fool, out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spot light
The people follow the signs
And synchronize in time
It's a joke, nobody knows
They've got a ticket to the show
Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Dum de dum, da dum de dum
Just enjoy the show
Dum de dum, da dum de dum
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
Saturday, May 16, 2009
that fire you ignited
Watched Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging on DVD for the third time today. Watched it the first time this afternoon and I couldn't stop. It is wayyyy better than the book, 'and I have it too, LOL.
AARON JOHNSON- Look at his EYES. Jeez!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
trying
Hi people :D
It's a free and lazy Wednesday afternoon with NO CCA, NO Science make-up lessons, and this is a nearly once-in-a-month chance that I get to leave school at 2pm, so I'm happy and I shall update! LOL.
Well that weekend after SYF ended I went to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic with my brother, haha. I thought it would've been those kind of lame chick-lit kind of movies, but it turned out to be better than expected. I like their accent!
2 days later on Monday night I went to watch Knowing. Jesus, LOL. I thought science-fiction movies were not supposed to be so scary! Well OK maybe it's because I'm faint hearted, but look here, I can't be blamed! I think that this movie is scarier than horror movies. Because in horror movies, most of the stuff's made up, while in that movie, whatever said was so true, so possible, I couldn't help but wonder. And then ended up scary the shit out of myself. ): Ahh well.
Then the next day after school I went to watch 17 Again with Yuching, Elvin, Yuhong, Chongtat, I think. I can't quite remember, LOL. Because it was the Chinese Dance's SYF on that day, Abigail and I rushed to UCC straight after school to support the Chinese dancers ^_^ By the time we went back to school, it was already 3 plus. Well I know my friends are good and kind souls 'cause they waited for me to go back to school and then go to Vivo to meet them to watch the movie, while they had free ice-creams from Ben&Jerry's free cone day. Haha. The movie was OK I guess. I love Zac Efron's eyes X_X
Since that week was two weeks before exams, and there weren't any CCA, I quickly watched all the movies I wanted to, LOL. 'Cause before that I had no time X_X and missed out on so many good movies ): Plus actually that Friday of the week I wanted to catch Fast and Furious 4 with Richie but in the end not going 'cause I got back my Chem test paper, LOLOL. I screwed so badly, and it spoiled my entire day. Jeez.
The next few days were a blur, with the Self-study break and all, plus Labour Day, and stuffs. And then the Sunday just before exams were supposed to start, my great-grandfather passed away. ): It felt kind of weird and all, like a 'lil part of me that was unable to grasp the truth and understand that fact.
Well of course the next few days in between exams, I went to the funeral at night. I hardly saw anybody crying, and when I asked my dad about that, he just replied something along the lines of "because he is already 100 years old." I was kinda shocked. I mean like, who cares how old you are when you die, so as to decide if they should cry or not? I thought crying at a funeral was usually when people are sad that the deceased is gone, like forever (although the Present Perfect Tense magazine insists that Chinese do that because it's a form of respect, like wth LOL).
Think you can guess as much how close my great-grandfather was to others, huh.
Anyway they found this Lee Kuan Yew's book among his belongings when he passed away. So I guess that's how he managed to not get senile.. Reading, alone, in his own little bubble of world. Perfect pastime.
Exams were.. Well, Lang Arts was OK, Chemistry made me unsure, Physics was better than expected, Biology was a bastard, English Lit was fun, Higher Chinese was sluggish, and I wanted to kick Math's ass.
Exams ended yesterday, and while everybody could happily go out for a movie or go home to eat sleep shit, we dancers were stuck in school. For CCA. The only good thing was that in between the end of exams and the start of CCA, there was 5 hours to spare, so Jieru, Rebecca, Abigail, Rachel, Weiling and I went to Plaza Sing's Pastamania to eat lunch ^^ We didn't go Vivo nor Queensway 'cause we thought it would be packed with RV people. Then we came back and dance was wth-ish LOL. Warm up was terrible- Benedict Soh really knows how to torture people. The rest was.. Well I don't wanna talk about it. Laughed alot though.
Woke up this morning with a body full of aches and a horrible flashback of my nightmare last night- about this 2 guys who were committing suicide by jumping off from above the Science Labs in RV and landing on the school track... which happened to be a few metres away from where I was standing, in my dream. Ugh.
Well just last night I was talking to Stanley about suicide. Hmm I have been thinking alot about it haven't I. To even be able to dream of it. ):
In school there was a briefing on OBS today. After the briefing, I felt damn pekcek lor LOL. What is it that the school has against my birthday (!) Z_Z Year after year, I don't get to celebrate my birthday on the actual day itself because of school reasons. Last year was West M'sia trip. This year is OBS. Smack right in the middle of OBS somemore. SIAN. D<
Anyway Ms Ling gave out a piece of worksheet that asked for our favourite subjects, what we thought of school, areas of improvement in school, what our parents thought about our studies, etc etc. There were so many cold yet the ultimate true answers I could think of, and I wanted to write them all down, but I guessed in the end, I didn't, because it was to be handed in.
Ahh, shutting myself out, as usual.
Let Love In - Goo Goo Dolls
You wait
Wanting this world to let you in
And you stand there, a frozen light
In dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind a God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to see
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
And I'll take my chances while
You take your time with this game you play
But I can't control your soul, you need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
It's a free and lazy Wednesday afternoon with NO CCA, NO Science make-up lessons, and this is a nearly once-in-a-month chance that I get to leave school at 2pm, so I'm happy and I shall update! LOL.
Well that weekend after SYF ended I went to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic with my brother, haha. I thought it would've been those kind of lame chick-lit kind of movies, but it turned out to be better than expected. I like their accent!
2 days later on Monday night I went to watch Knowing. Jesus, LOL. I thought science-fiction movies were not supposed to be so scary! Well OK maybe it's because I'm faint hearted, but look here, I can't be blamed! I think that this movie is scarier than horror movies. Because in horror movies, most of the stuff's made up, while in that movie, whatever said was so true, so possible, I couldn't help but wonder. And then ended up scary the shit out of myself. ): Ahh well.
Then the next day after school I went to watch 17 Again with Yuching, Elvin, Yuhong, Chongtat, I think. I can't quite remember, LOL. Because it was the Chinese Dance's SYF on that day, Abigail and I rushed to UCC straight after school to support the Chinese dancers ^_^ By the time we went back to school, it was already 3 plus. Well I know my friends are good and kind souls 'cause they waited for me to go back to school and then go to Vivo to meet them to watch the movie, while they had free ice-creams from Ben&Jerry's free cone day. Haha. The movie was OK I guess. I love Zac Efron's eyes X_X
Since that week was two weeks before exams, and there weren't any CCA, I quickly watched all the movies I wanted to, LOL. 'Cause before that I had no time X_X and missed out on so many good movies ): Plus actually that Friday of the week I wanted to catch Fast and Furious 4 with Richie but in the end not going 'cause I got back my Chem test paper, LOLOL. I screwed so badly, and it spoiled my entire day. Jeez.
The next few days were a blur, with the Self-study break and all, plus Labour Day, and stuffs. And then the Sunday just before exams were supposed to start, my great-grandfather passed away. ): It felt kind of weird and all, like a 'lil part of me that was unable to grasp the truth and understand that fact.
Well of course the next few days in between exams, I went to the funeral at night. I hardly saw anybody crying, and when I asked my dad about that, he just replied something along the lines of "because he is already 100 years old." I was kinda shocked. I mean like, who cares how old you are when you die, so as to decide if they should cry or not? I thought crying at a funeral was usually when people are sad that the deceased is gone, like forever (although the Present Perfect Tense magazine insists that Chinese do that because it's a form of respect, like wth LOL).
Think you can guess as much how close my great-grandfather was to others, huh.
Anyway they found this Lee Kuan Yew's book among his belongings when he passed away. So I guess that's how he managed to not get senile.. Reading, alone, in his own little bubble of world. Perfect pastime.
Exams were.. Well, Lang Arts was OK, Chemistry made me unsure, Physics was better than expected, Biology was a bastard, English Lit was fun, Higher Chinese was sluggish, and I wanted to kick Math's ass.
Exams ended yesterday, and while everybody could happily go out for a movie or go home to eat sleep shit, we dancers were stuck in school. For CCA. The only good thing was that in between the end of exams and the start of CCA, there was 5 hours to spare, so Jieru, Rebecca, Abigail, Rachel, Weiling and I went to Plaza Sing's Pastamania to eat lunch ^^ We didn't go Vivo nor Queensway 'cause we thought it would be packed with RV people. Then we came back and dance was wth-ish LOL. Warm up was terrible- Benedict Soh really knows how to torture people. The rest was.. Well I don't wanna talk about it. Laughed alot though.
Woke up this morning with a body full of aches and a horrible flashback of my nightmare last night- about this 2 guys who were committing suicide by jumping off from above the Science Labs in RV and landing on the school track... which happened to be a few metres away from where I was standing, in my dream. Ugh.
Well just last night I was talking to Stanley about suicide. Hmm I have been thinking alot about it haven't I. To even be able to dream of it. ):
In school there was a briefing on OBS today. After the briefing, I felt damn pekcek lor LOL. What is it that the school has against my birthday (!) Z_Z Year after year, I don't get to celebrate my birthday on the actual day itself because of school reasons. Last year was West M'sia trip. This year is OBS. Smack right in the middle of OBS somemore. SIAN. D<
Anyway Ms Ling gave out a piece of worksheet that asked for our favourite subjects, what we thought of school, areas of improvement in school, what our parents thought about our studies, etc etc. There were so many cold yet the ultimate true answers I could think of, and I wanted to write them all down, but I guessed in the end, I didn't, because it was to be handed in.
Ahh, shutting myself out, as usual.
Let Love In - Goo Goo Dolls
You wait
Wanting this world to let you in
And you stand there, a frozen light
In dark and empty streets
You smile hiding behind a God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to see
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
And I'll take my chances while
You take your time with this game you play
But I can't control your soul, you need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in
There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in
You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in
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"part of life"
I just came back from my great-grandfather's funeral wake.
Yeah, he passed away this morning at 5am.
Rest in peace.
Yeah, he passed away this morning at 5am.
Rest in peace.
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