I feel you whisper across the sea

I'm feeling more clear-minded now, I guess. A little more hopeful about the class, a little less frustrated about the feelings.

Have been talking to many people about many things these few days. Jieru, Jacky, Xinzhe, etc. All the different things I say to them, I never told anyone else. I'm really glad you guys listen lol. Oh btw Xinzhe I think you're an awesome listener haha very good to talk to you about serious stuff, 'cause you're super sensitive and aware of the people around you, so you actually get what I'm talking about. You're one of the few that do, haha. Thanks for today!

So a few Mondays ago after Elit paper 2, Shiyi Huiying Yuyan and I went to watch Charlie St. Cloud!!!! There was supposed to be a class outing but honestly I don't think I regretted not going LOL however fun it could have been, Zac Efron was freaking hot in the movie.. His eyes were amazing. I love the way he cried, like silently tearing. It felt really real and natural haha. And I love how he's so true with Vanessa Hudgens..

After that that Tuesday was supposed to be Marking Day but we had CCA T_T one month never stretch already suddenly felt like a rock zzz but was quite glad he released the Year 4s after lunch heehee. After that Weiling Jieru and I lunch-ed at Pepper Lunch (I'm quite in love with their Seafood Aglio Olio, actually) and went to shop ^^ they were ultra tired, so was I, but I still bought stuff LOL. My wallet is seriously getting lighter zzz

And then Wednesday I couldn't walk already BUT still had to go for CCA. First session with JC batch.. Damn hiong omg zzz didn't know exactly what to expect and didn't know exactly how I felt about it but it was just quite tiring. Though it was fun because of the novelty of it all. And how satisfying it was, because we were actually heightening our potential lol. But I swear Thursday I couldn't walk properly. I stoned during assembly because I didn't want to move a muscle and feel the pain. Took horribly long to walk up and down staircases. And sitting down and standing up. Wth LOL.

Oh last Saturday went out with Yuching Yuhong Yonglun Qinghe ^^ At first ate lunch @ Sakae with Yuching Yuhong Qinghe. Damn awesome but felt like a pauper after that zzz $_$ I think I shall stick with Sakae with family heehee

After that Yonglun joined us and we were supposed to watch movie but Yuching had to attend some prize giving ceromony. Took us freaking long to find the place LOL but it was quite fun looking for it. The guys were complaining of the heat and making damn funny comments. After the whole thing my headache started to get terrible but we still watched Takers in the end @ Marina Square.

The reviews were right, it deviated away from the plot very much, felt so draggy I was like "when is it going to end I need to get out and puke", which I did, in the end, because my head was splitting z. Anyway it was the first time I tried GV's pasta, it was not bad, but then again, I didn't get to digest it fully. What a pity..

This Monday we had another Frisbee session after a long break, it felt quite good to run so much again. Thought the whole thing was better but abit sian after awhile.. Anyway thanks Jacky LOL

Tuesday after school went with Gladys Rachel and Jieru to shop again. Thought I felt triumph walking out of the shop without buying anything, in the end I couldn't take it ran back in and bought something zzz my resistance to temptation is damn cui I swear.

Yesterday had the first subject talk for Year 5s. Frankly it made me quite nervous. Suddenly I feel so old, like I was going to get sucked into the vicious world of mundanity. Next year I would have to study real hard, have no life, and like what Ms Lee said, it would be like being in a prison cell lol, especially with the combi I want to take. Then subsequently it'll not be long before we start going to uni and working and becoming one of those adults who are dead inside. I wouldn't like that. I refuse to be like that! I don't get it, why can't people have fun without having disastrous consequences..

On a lighter note, we had our second Dance session with JC. Still think the barwork quite hiong. After a couple of sets I was perspiring like mad already. Previously it took me like until the jumping part to make me perspire LOL. But quite fufilling ^_^ Like the first session the last Wednesday. At least yesterday the second half was just sitting down and writing stuff, I like :D

After CCA saw the Orange House people still doing stuffs so stayed back with Abigail and Jieru to help them.. Found out some stuff and experienced some stuff but it was quite fun. Baolong and Yingbo damn cute hahahahaha Yingbo jiayou OK LOLOL

Went home with Jieru, and as usual, we talked alot. Felt a little clearer after that. Thanks :) But we realized on the train that we missed the 20:10 :( Oh well.

Today was Sports Day! It was actually quite fun : ) The cheering, screaming, singing.. Good times haha. Although our house didn't exactly have good runners but we cheered all the same. I like that!! :D Baolong was perhaps a convincing Tigger but he kept hugging Barney LOL nevermind you're still the best mascot ever haha. For putting up with the smelly pumpkin hat also LOL. Oh and after seeing Ms Lee run she is now officially 100% my idol LOLOL OMGGGGG

Anyway halfway through I felt ultra tired and hungry hahaha during the 10 minutes break ate my noodles as usual then Mr Gan was chasing people out of the canteen LOL. After school went to eat brunch with 4E @ KFC. Didn't know why I went but it was okay I guess. Went home and I totally slept on the train. Damn tired today after all the screaming and high-ing.

Now I can't run because of the haze z oh and got back results. Quite OK I guess. Not happy, but not sad either.

You put a whole new meaning to the little things in life

If I could read your mind

Tomorrow is 20/10/2010! Hope I can catch the 20:10 too :)

Cute song recommended by Darren-

Superman - Joe Brooks

There are no words
To paint a picture of you girl
Your eyes, those curves
It's like you're from some other world
You walk my way
Oh God is so frustrating

So why do I disappear when you come near
It makes me feel so small
Why do I blow my lines, almost every time
Like I got no chance at all

If I could be your superman
I'd fly you to the stars and back again
'Cause every time you touched my hand
You feel my powers running through your veins
But I can only write this song
And tell you that I'm not that strong
'Cause I'm no superman
I hope you like me as I am

It ain't no lie
I have to tell you how I feel
Each time, I try
It gets a little more unreal
You walk my way
Oh God is so frustrating

So why do I disappear when you come near
It makes me feel so small
If I could read your mind
Girl would I find, any trace of me at all

If I could be your superman
I'd fly you to the stars and back again
'Cause every time you touched my hand
You feel my powers running through your veins
But I can only write this song
And tell you that I'm not that strong
'Cause I'm no superman
I hope you like me as I am

If I could be your superman
I'd fly you to the stars and back again
'Cause every time you touched my hand
You feel my powers running through your veins
But I can only write this song
And tell you that I'm not that strong
'Cause I'm no superman
I hope you like me as I am

when you die in a dream and not wake up, you go into limbo

One last Lit Paper 2 on Monday to go! Which I'm going to screw up, considering my state now zz

Anyway last Sunday I went piano I think I was getting kind of sick and stuff I left all my piano books there accidentally LOL I forgot what happened last Monday.. Then on Tuesday had LA Paper 2 and Lit P1. Both papers were quite weird. After that went lunch with Weiren Jieru and Eugene at Yewtee's E.A.T. still so delicious! Then Jieru and I went Lot 1 to study at Macs... We talked so much about stuffs haha after awhile we went to rooftop garden to talk some more wow hehehe

Wednesday no paper but went to JP to eat lunch with Weiren Jieru and Tingzhen later on studied with Jieru at Weiren's house. Once again good food by his mom LOL Thursday no paper also but lunched with 4E ppl at JP again. After that didn't feel well so went home.. And had fever. Slept like mad. Lucky next day only CID paper.

CID was so fun, it's just so nice to write reflections cause there isn't any right or wrong. Then met up with Weiling and we were supposed to talk about Lit but ended up talking about alot of other stuffs while we walked around in Orchard..

Went home, saw doctor, so many drugs to consume now, slept at 9 plus, woke up a lot of times to clear my throat zzz my whole system is clogged up with crap I swear it felt damn uncomfortable. But at the same time I was feeling freaking weak and tired, not sure if it was the medicine so everytime I woke up I felt like I was floating. My head felt so heavy I just wanted to hurry up lie down and sleep..

This morning was a lot better I guess but then suddenly after breakfast I felt ultra weak again. I conclude it's the drugs!! But no choice... Dragged myself to lunch at some chinese restaurant to celebrate my uncle's birthday! There was so much good food, but I had to forgo the chicken wings, the fried prawn thingy etc omg T_T but what I ate was still very nice hahaha

It's been long since I've been down with fever and stuff I guess it was throat infection. It totally feels like I'm in limbo. My head constantly feels heavy, my sense of balance is way off and my body feels so limp. Every sensation becomes so numb but it tingles at the same time. It feels a lot harder when I try to think and and my mouth always tastes so bland.. And why does this sound like I'm going to die LOL

Everything I do seems like a dream.. including this post (BTW there were so many typo errors I had to correct)

Then again there are so many movies I want to watch after exams!! Charlie St. Cloud, Eat Pray Love, The Other Guys, Piranha...

I need to know

I feel so insouciant today! OK not entirely, but enough for me to want to come and blog : )

For the past few days was feeling quite emo about CID but after what EC said I felt a little enlightened.. even though I lapsed back into the emo state a couple of times but still..

Anyway haven't been updating for more than a month already nothing much happened I guess? Went out shopping with Jieru and Weiling separately recently. Even though it's kind of exam period now.. On 14 September went to watch Vampires Suck with Weiling and Gladys, I was kind of laughing at how lame the show was, not their jokes LOL. Anyway I think that if they had worked on some of the better jokes, it would've made a good satire.

Last last week went to watch Grown Ups with Jieru Weiren and Eugene lol. I was kind of happy going out with them, I don't know why, but sometimes I still think they are kind of real amidst all the superficiality. Anyway the show was brainless but funny, good to destress.

I spent my first day of the study break at JP Macs with Weiling. Studied whole day.. But it was damn freaking cold after awhile and the background music was kind of noisy. Lucky met Jieru in the toilet during lunch time and asked her to joined us and she had a jacket!! Yay! LOL In the evening celebrated Claire's birthday at Pizza Hut with 4E then went home.

Second day- Weiren's house with Jieru. His mom is a good cook LOL but dinner too full already omg hahaha. Went for a walk along the canal and after that went home.

Last day was supposed to be for me to do LA research. But morning slacked a while then EC suddenly ask us to go eat lunch at JP so went Pepper Lunch with Shiyi Paola Jacky Shaun Ernchuen. Food was not bad (Y) Stoned awhile then ate pancakes at Mr Bean! Then went home and slacked for the rest of the day...

Chinese papers were quite easy, except cloze passage I always fail that z.

Thursday night I was super frustrated and worried 'cause I didn't know how to prepare for LA.. When I saw the questions on Friday I was like "oh shit" but after I started writing, I thought it was quite fun! I did question 7 my lucky number hehe^^ but also because I only studied arts LOL. Yuyan is crazy she did question 8 omg. Pro 就是 pro..

After that was kind of happy not because I would score well (I would probably score badly, actually) but because I loved what I wrote. I don't know, first time I love writing a non-storylike essay LOL. So weird.

After that went lunch with the usual people. Finally I can breathe a little! Because LA Paper 1 is over : )

These few days have been listening to a lot of songs on youtube, realized there's a lot a lot of talent. It's amazing!! I didn't use to dislike Justin Bieber but after I hear so much more I think it's quite wasted... LOL.

Anyway Yuching recommended this: http://vimeo.com/12155835 Really really really sweet LOL she said "it's like a tragedy that's not tragic" omg (Y)

And after Shaun let me watch the Kiwi one at first I didn't understand but after he explained I felt super depressed ._. because I learnt about them in NZ and they were so freaking cute zz here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdUUx5FdySs

Good luck for EOYS!!!

PS I'm in love: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErMWX--UJZ4&feature=related