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realised last night,, to learn that the guy you love so much doesnt even care about you, is very very painful.
very.

last night was crap.
ok, fine. i admit.
last night was total shit.
partially b'cos my stinking stinking bro didnt want to let me use the comp.
he sucks.

but the main reason was..
i guess it was just.
everything exploding.
everything that have been inside me, accumulating for so long.
so long.

and the last straw was..
im not telling.
i promise.

and foolish as i was,
i went to listen to Almost, But by Sleeq.
i cried.
oh, fuck.

anw. enough about that.
read 2 books during the past 2 to 3 days.
Game Girls was... well, nice fucking going on.
The Truth About Emma was simply.. good, too. but i learnt the often usuage of vulgarities from there.
so.

i oso apologise for not posting fer past few days.
just didnt feel like it.

PS i got all subjects As for this eoy exams.
but last night went i felt crap, i was thinking, all As, so what? big deal. when ure feeling so shitty, As cant help on anything.
uhmmm.

finished some rounds of audi. felt better.
at least not crying.
crapcrapcrap.