Tuesday, December 15, 2009

four chords in a melody

Sometimes people... they wouldn't know.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

once again

This is the last time I will update before I leave for NZ.

On Sunday morning my whole family went for Run For Hope at East Coast Park there. Saw Dr. William Tan. So fun. Saw so many Caucasians. LOL. Afternoon only had drums.

Slacked at home on Monday. Tuesday afternoon went to get medication from my doctor for the NZ trip. Then went to the airport to 接 my aunt who just came from Beijing I think. She went there for work. Lol. Came home and chiong-ed to pack my luggage zzz.

Time is passing so quickly, sian. This afternoon going off to NZ already. Must enjoy the trip. If not waste my dad's money T.T Must appreciate must appreciate must appreciate omg. Cannot take him for granted he's the best dad in the world yay 8D LOL.

BYE EVERYBODY :D
See you all soon!

Oh anyway I think this song is really beautiful.

Try - Asher Book

If I walk, would you run
If I stop, would you come
If I say you’re the one, would you believe me
If I ask you to stay, would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me

The world is catching up to you
While you're running away, to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move, 'cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We’ve been hiding enough

If I sing you a song, would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart, would you just play the part
Or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful

Am I catching up to you
While you're running away, to chase your dream
It's time for us to face the truth, 'cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk, would you run
If I stop, would you come
If I say you’re the one, would you believe me

Saturday, November 21, 2009

things happen

OK I realize it's going to be days before I leave for NZ and if I really want to keep this blog going I shouldn't procrastinate any further on updating. LOL. But it's been long since I last updated and I can't really remember anything in between but I'll try to keep up, hopefully. If I missed anything out, that's too bad.

12 Oct 2009
Went out with Yuching and Weiling for movie marathon since it was some kind of school holiday. So we watched Fame.



It was quite nice but not as nice as Step Up 1 & 2, duh. LOL. Then we walked around for awhile and then we caught 500 Days of Summer.



The movie was like HUH and quite unbelievable but I think the process was the most enjoyable, taking away the irrationality of that part. After all, love's blind zzz. LOL.

I can't remember anything else for the rest of the week and I can't find any info on it so let's just forget it. Hmmm.

21 Oct 2009
After school went out with Weiling and I watched Surrogates for the second time. Almost fell asleep- Yuching, you were partially right about the boring thing I guess. Do you even remember what you said? LOL.

24 Oct 2009
My mom won some lucky draw for some sort of thing and she got free chalet thingy so my family went to Coasta Sands Downtown East for one night. LOL. I can't remember but I think I went out in the early afternoon (or maybe I had dance, I seriously can't remember) then I met my eldest brother at Bugis and we ate our lunch there then we took MRT all the way to Pasir Ris to meet my mom.

My second brother didn't go because he was doing PW which lasted until 2am and he got stuck at Lorong Chuan without any train back and he couldn't find a cab so he hiked home from there. Pro. LOL.

Anyway the chalet was nuts, it was quite boring actually. My dad went for some run so he only joined us in the evening. Before that, me, my eldest bro and my mom were in the room watching TV. Haha. Then when my dad came we went to some restaurant at Whitesands and had our dinner. After that we sat the Ferris Wheel which was kind of stupid but for the fun of it, yeah.

Anyway we sat it because it was some sort of free coupon that could be used for either that, Wild Wild Wet and Escape Theme Park. We didn't feel like going for 2nd and 3rd one so we ended up crapping on the Ferris Wheel. Oops.

Had a super great night's sleep and my dad wanted to go jogging early in the morning but his plans were thwarted by my mom's awakening. The couple planned to go see the sunrise and they made the mistake of asking me and my eldest brother if we wanted to go along. Since we said yes, we took so long to prepare and get out of the room that we totally missed the entire sunrise LOL fail.

In the end we just went to Pasir Ris beach. I have some photos but I'm not posting it I suppose. Had Mac's Breakfast and then we went home.

27 Oct 2009
Next few days were Post-Exam Activities (PEA) which were quite OK, I guess. Had to costume-mize Kimyee. I thought I'd never say this in my life but- pictures on facebook. Quite lame. Zzz.

1 Nov 2009
Had 3E CIP (plus a few from 3B) at Hort Park. It was quite fun, seriously. Some of us went to ask people to do surveys, and it wasn't as bad as we expected I guess. Then we were done and free until dinnertime so we decided to help out at those game booths which were tended by some other 3E classmates. I thought it was quite cool. Realized many Singaporeans were seriously... I have no idea how to describe. Forget it.

My parents plus my second brother came to fetch me home, and fetched Mengying back to her hostel as well. Again, pictures on facebook.

(If my blog becomes really wordy with no pictures whatsoever, blame Facebook. Anyway my blog never had much pictures so I guess you all can live with it.)

2 Nov 2009
Supposed to go out with Yuching and Weiling and somehow I ended up being late and somehow we ended up watching Coraline (in 3D). It sucked. Because it managed to scare me LOL.



Seriously I'm never going to have good impressions about buttons ever again. Black ones, especially.

5 Nov 2009
Went to watch My Sister's Keeper at AMK Hub in the evening.



It was terribly sad and I cried like mad LOL. Been long since I saw a movie so good. But I went home and read the reviews and alot of people were disappointed since they said the ending of the book and the movie were very much different.

6 Oct 2009
So I couldn't help it but want to read the book so I went out with Rachel and we went all over Singapore for shopping. Bought my earphones and after that we went to Orchard's Borders to look for My Sister's Keeper book. They were out of stock so we went to ION Orchard's new bookstore Prologue (which was really cool, btw) to buy the book.

Anyway after that we went to many other shopping centres to look for shoes that Rachel wanted to buy but we couldn't find anything satisfying. Ended up eating dinner at AMK Hub. LOL.

7 Oct 2009
Went to my dad's office's D&D at night. The emcee was totally fail, and the whole thing was quite lame but it was still quite fun because the food was kind of good. LOL.


Me and my bros somewhere outside there. LOL.

9 Oct 2009
At night went to visit my grandmother's brother at the hospital. He had last stage cancer and his condition was bad so my mom brought me along to visit him. Apparently a few days ago he was still talking and laughing with them. That night I went, he had breathing difficulty and was unconscious the whole time. Depressing, in a way. But I was glad I went.

10 Oct 2009
My grandmother's brother passed away this morning, and I felt OK that I actually saw him one last time when I had the chance. If not I would have been more depressed. Went to his funeral at night with my family. Had dance in the morning.

11 Oct 2009
Had dance in the morning again, then came home bathed and stuffs and left for 3E chalet at Coasta Sands Downtown East. Mrt rides to Pasir Ris area are becoming familiar. The chalet was weird, in a way. Followed them around, arcade, bowling and stuffs. Then Tzechong Alvin Elvin Yingbo came and it was much better. Ate at 日本村 LOL super fun with them hahaha.

Went back to chalet, played some cards, stoned around. Then went to Macs with Tzechong and Xinzhe for supper. Didn't want to eat anything but ended up succumbing to junk food LOL. We crapped alot super super funny. Joke LOL. Then I went home because I had dance the next morning and I never went back to 3E chalet so I don't know about the rest of it.

12 Oct 2009
Morning woke up at some godly hour and my dad fetched me to Changi Airport. Met Rachel there- we were seeing the bicul people off to their beloved China. In the end we realized that there was no time to go back for Dance, so we rushed like mad. Dance was supposed to start at 9am- we reached at 8.59. Cooool.

After dance, went home bathed and everything and left for 2E chalet. This week was super tiring omg no rest at all -.- Anyway 2E chalet was at Changi Aloha which was super eerie zzz. Didn't even know how to get there, thank you guys for waiting at the bus stop for me and thank you William for embarrassing yourself by flagging any bus 29 that came along. LOL.

Walked to the chalet and William kept trying to scare me zzz. Anyway we reached and they kept telling me about Elvin's shoes infested by ants and stuffs. Zhijie and some others were BBQ-ing (which contributed to my dinner) thank you so much LOL. Hotdogs and fishballs are cool.

After that we played some cards and watched some Bride Wars LOL. Then the time came and we watched Final Destination 2. Freaky. LOL. Especially in Changi Aloha zzz. Then watched some Basketball show starring Jay Chou which was quite cute. Then everybody went up and squeezed into one or two rooms when there were like, four. LOL. Played Slapjack which was super funny. Then Indian Poker which had a incredulous forfeit HAHA. There was even a video LOL.

Then I conked out and alot of us slept on the floor LOL. Woke up and it was terribly cold so I went to some other room to find Jiarui and we talked. The rest were still playing or stuffs. After that it was early in the morning, like 6am or 7am plus and most of them went home. 6 of us who stayed- me Yuching Jiarui Lizhen Yuhong Siqi played Speed and had fun. LOL.

Then we checked out together and fetched Jiarui to the MRT while the remaining 5 of us went to Tampines area Macs for breakfast. Crapped alot and rubbished all the way on the MRT. Went home and bathed and fell asleep. Freaking tired, lol.

16 Nov 2009
Went to school for NZ pre-trip briefing. This trip's gonna be so weird. 2E'08 people, 3E'09 people, and dancers. OK, just 1 other dancer. But I never imagined all of them together, so I don't know how it's gonna be. Pretty odd, I'll say. Oh well. Anyway I think this year's trip is going to be so much more boring than last year's. Damn.

After the briefing, went to Vivo with Jiarui Szenee Yuhong Chongtat for lunch. Then we walked around and stuffs.

Tuesday Wednesday Thursday had Dance. Tiring. Thursday was the last dance practice at Malan Road. Quite sad LOL. So everybody took many pictures. Lazy to upload on fb/blogger now LOL.

Re-read Twilight and re-watched the movie recently. LOL. Then I'm gonna re-read New Moon and after I'm back from NZ I wanna watch the movie!! LOL. I think it's going to be better and cooler than Twilight. The Vultori were classic. Haha.

Last night I went to watch 2012 with my family, excluding my second brother (he is always doing projects -.-) but including my grandparents! Wow, right.



The movie was kind of depressing but the special effects were damn cool. LOL. My eldest brother said the storyline was rubbish LOL. Honestly I also think so. Like, huh I don't even know what it has to do with the monk in the poster. LOL. Aiya but watch for special effects mah. At least there was some happy ending at the end so it wasn't entirely upsetting for the record. And my eldest bro said they used 2 kinds of cameras to film this- ever since he went poly and learnt all these stuffs I think he can never watch a movie properly again. -.-

Anyway in between all these I might have gone out with other people and stuffs but I just can't remember exactly when. Oh, went out to Vivo with Rachel many times -.- LOL. OK XINZHE I DIDN'T FORGET MY BLOG. ZZZ.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

i didn't make you stay

This song reminds me of you.

Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo

Wh-wh-wh-what did she say?
Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else

So, no, I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever
So let me in
(Let me in)
Give me another chance
(Another chance)
To really be your man

'Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
(Whatcha say? Whatcha say?)
Wh-wh-wh-what did she say?

How could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go?
And ooh, what I'd do for one chance
I just gotta let you know

I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you were meant to be together
So let me in
(Let me in)
Give me another chance
(Another chance)
To really be your man

'Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
(Whatcha say? Whatcha say?)
Wh-wh-wh-what did she say?

Girl, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
'Cause things ain't right, girl

Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
'Cause things ain't right

'Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby whatcha say?

Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

Mmm whatcha say?
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmm whatcha say?
(Whatcha say? Whatcha say?)
Wh-wh-wh-what did she say?

Friday, October 23, 2009

maintain consciousness

It's always about the underdog winning.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

enjoy


This is so cute! The guy, especially. I love his last facial expression!!


And this is thought provoking..

Sunday, October 11, 2009

don't say you love me tonight

MY BROTHER IS BACK MY BROTHER IS BACK MY BROTHER IS BACK!!!!!!

OK I know I should be preparing for CID or something but MY BROTHER IS BACK!!! FINALLY!!

After 6 god-damn weeks, he is back. Blond hair, but still back!! LOL.

OK exams were screwed fullstop and then the weekend came and it totally rocked! Friday after school went out with Yuching, Lizhen and Jiarui and we went to watch Surrogates!



It was ultra cool. A little confusing but very intriguing. I want to watch it again LOL. Anyway before that thank you for waiting for my Lit Paper 2 to be over before watching the movie :D Camped for 2 hours before the movie started at Burger King I think.

Saturday afternoon got new phone and new plan. And then Saturday night around 11pm I went to the airport with my parents to go fetch my brother ^______^ It was so good to see him again yay he bought loads of stuffs for us LOL.

OK BYE 8D

Monday, October 5, 2009

girls like mars

I love this song, especially the first few seconds, LOL.

Oh well. Exams are utterly.. screwed.

Heart Heart Heartbreak - Boys Like Girls

Girl don't say you love me when you're out the door
'Cause I know things are different than they were before
You kill me with your kiss
It's so hard to resist you
When you look me in the eyes tonight

And say we're heading for a heart, heart, heartbreak
And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving
Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak
I'm gonna, gonna, turn around and walk away
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving

You said we'd stick it out through the thick and thin
But when the walls came down you wouldn't let me in
We've been through it all
My back's against the wall
It's crashing down on me tonight

Yeah, we're heading for a heart, heart, heartbreak
And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving
Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak
I'm gonna, gonna, turn around and walk away
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving

I'm sick and tired of this whole situation
Here comes another fight
Beating me down with the same conversation
No don't say you love me tonight

Yea, we're heading for a heart, heart, heartbreak
And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving
Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak
I'm gonna, gonna, turn around and walk away
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving

Say we're heading for a heart, heart, heartbreak
And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving
Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak
I'm gonna, gonna, turn around and walk away
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me you're leaving

Saturday, October 3, 2009

things that haunt you

Last night I dreamt my eyes were itching and started bleeding and I went blind and had to go for surgery and got my head wrapped in bandage. Bloody scary.

Shit now I don't need Yuyan to tell me I'm fucking troubled, lol.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

equity vs equality

Today is the first day of exams. The Chinese paper wasn't too bad, but the Lit paper was rather, uhm, screwed? Tough, lol.

Anyway last night I dreamt of Sulao + Llm + Harry Potter + blood and ghosts. Couldn't sleep soundly. Yuyan says I'm troubled. LOL.

Shiyi dreamt of Ms Ling. She decides it was going to be a bad day. LOLOL.

Oh well everybody good luck for the upcoming papers!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

joy



I could watch this a million times and not get bored. ^_^

power of language

Got this from an email, quite cool!

ONLY THE ENGLISH COULD HAVE INVENTED THIS LANGUAGE-


We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,
But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.
One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,
Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,
Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,
Then shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?
If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,
And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,
Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,
Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,
And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.
We speak of a brother and also of brethren,
But though we say mother, we never say methren.
Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!

Let's face it - English is a crazy language.
There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;
neither apple nor pine in pineapple.
English muffins weren't invented in England ..
We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes,
we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square,
and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,
grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?
Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.
If you have a bunch of odds and ends
and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?
If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English
should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.

In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?
We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.
We have noses that run and feet that smell.
We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.
And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,
While a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language
In which your house can burn up as it burns down,
In which you fill in a form by filling it out,
And in which an alarm goes off by going on.

And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother's not Mop?

I WOULD LIKE TO ADD THAT IF PEOPLE FROM POLAND ARE CALLED POLES THEN PEOPLE FROM HOLLAND SHOULD BE HOLES AND THE GERMANS GERMS!!!

---------------

Being British is about driving in a German car to an Irish pub where we drink a Belgian beer. On the way home we pick up an Indian curry or a Turkish kebab. Then we sit on Swedish furniture and watch American shows on a Japanese TV.

Most of all we're very suspicious of anything foreign.

More than that, only in Britain can you get a pizza quicker than an ambulance; only in Britain do banks leave both doors open, but chain the pens to the counter; only in Britain do supermarkets make sick people walk to the back of the store to get their prescriptions, while healthy people can get their fags at the front.

We might be British, but you can't deny that we're bloody funny.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

when it's time

Life has been, perhaps, as usual. Went to watch 'Why Not Dance?' on the 19 Sept; the rest of the week was a normal one.

Skyped with my eldest brother (who's in China) last night and he dyed his entire head blonde- tsk tsk LOL.

F1 race just ended, Lewis Hamilton won! Yay :}

OK bye. Everybody good luck for EOYs!

Monday, September 21, 2009

"i have a secret"

SIGNS

Go and watch! It's really beautiful.

Friday, September 18, 2009

forever is over

TGIF! Was zombie-ing around for the past week, finally the weekend is here -.-

Anyway today after school stayed back for awhile then went to eat lunch/dinner at 4 plus 5 plus pm with R, BK, LH and JW. We went to Pizza Hut, LOL.

Later on went shopping, then came home. Feeling super blurry now.

Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(Taste it on my tongue)

The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye

There's just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
(Stuck in black and white)

You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye

There's just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye

There's just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now it's over

(Now it's over, I still taste it on my tongue)

(Now it's over)

Thursday, September 17, 2009

i used to be love drunk

Back to school this week. Late nights and satisfaction kind of make me happy (:

Tired, though.

Today's Bio test made my brain feel like the glomerulus. One entire mesh -_-

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

I'm Yours Jason Mraz

I wonder how do you feel

Saturday, September 12, 2009

i'm not gonna write you a love song

Hello hello I just realised how long it was since I last updated properly -.- Have been trying to recall fully what happened the last few weeks but to no avail so sorry if I miss anything out OK!

So my eldest brother left for Wuhan on the 29th.. And then there was the Teacher's Day performance on the 31st! Haha, I kind of don't know how to comment on the performance. At least it was fun while it lasted, yeah?

After the celebration, lunch-ed at Harbourfront with Weiling, Rachel, Boonkee, Jieru, Gladys, Liheng and Junweng. After that went to Yuching's house with Weiling and Rachel. Some 2E guys were there, plus Lizhen. LOL everybody was totally awesome we had so much fun haha. Rachel ended up with some dirty sock that wasn't hers lol! Dad came to fetch me and Weiling back at around 8 plus pm, was dead tired.

Anyway before that Weiling and I were contemplating if we should've gone back RVPS to see the rest. Oh well, didn't go in the end, 'cause we just didn't feel like it -_-

1st Sept - Tuesday, school holiday! I'm still quite surprised when I found out that there was a school holiday for Teacher's Day o_O Anyway went out with Rachel, Boonkee, Junweng and Liheng to go study LOL. Went to AMK library, only did one morning of work, then we chiong-ed through our lunch and rushed to AMK Hub to watch Turning Point!



Lol the movie was sort of cool and I kinda liked the actors but somehow halfway through the movies there were so many flashbacks I was lost =.= But it was still nice, just that why did everybody have to die at the end?! Overheard also, is this some kind of trend or something with Hong Kong movies? So morbid zzz.

After the movie we headed to Junweng's house to slack. After that bus-ed home.

2nd Sept - Wednesday, had to go back to school, boring. The next few days were just blah-ing. CCA sessions are getting more hiong, though. Nice ^^

5th Sept - Saturday, can't really remember what I did. At night went to some Jumbo Seafood restaurant to celebrate some relative's birthday. If I remember correctly it was my grandfather's older sister's birthday. There was so many relatives around zzz I didn't realise my extended family was that huge =.= I think they played the Birthday song 8 times, in different languages, though there were some repeats. 1 song for each decade? The food was fabulous but it was quite boring actually.

Sunday 6th Sept was a usual Sunday but went for the Yellow Ribbon Prison Run in the morning.



It was quite fun and the weather was quite cooling but my eldest brother wasn't around to run with me zzz. The organisation of the run was quite good, though.

Had 2 hours of drums in the afternoon. Super shiok. LOL. Have to start practising my piano often T.T

7th Sept Monday had CCA, ultra hiong. Morning had some relatively less slack PT in Dance Studio, then Sulao arrived and we had endurance PT LOL. He seriously has the handbook for "1001 Ways In Torturing Students", I guess. But nevermind it was quite a fruitful PT session :D Lunch-ed at Anchorpoint with the girls, then chiong-ed back - really chiong-ed back to Dance Studio but in the end the teachers were half an hour late -.- Anyway we did some "challenging" stuffs in the afternoon LOL.

After CCA, went out with Rachel, Liheng and Junweng. Boonkee was supposed to come but she ended up sleeping at home LOL. Anyway we went to Vivo and watched G-Force!



Great show, lol. Damn cute ^_^

8th Sept Tuesday - CCA was sort of cool, in a way. Went to Hort Park for treetop walk. Saw monkeys! Anyway we had to reflect about our surroundings and I realised there were many things at the back of my mind, just that I didn't allow myself some time to think about it, to write about it. This time Sulao gave us ample time to reflect about everything, pen our thoughts down, presented my stuff, and then we did some fun activity. LOL. Relatively slack. Oh ya they sort of changed some Comm people. Haiz. Everybody jiayous bah lol.

Stayed back after CCA with Rachel, Liheng and Junweng to do work lol. In the end I was super tired and kinda stressed so I ended up not doing any work LOL.

On the way home this weird man asked me to do some stupid survey and because I had alot of things on my mind I didn't know how to react properly and I ended up doing the survey but while I was doing he kept trying to talk about my school, uniform and everything then when I passed him back the survey form he still kept yapping away, chatting about how stressful it is in RV and all that. Super scary omg LOL. OK probably I'm too paranoid because I just finished reading Criminal Invent recently and he kind of resembled those bad guys who used survey stuffs to cheat people or something LOL. Told my mom then she just told me next time "don't talk to strangers" zzz =.=

At night went to watch The Proposal!



It was cool, in a way. Like all other romance flicks. LOL. The humour was quite good, though. And it kind of reminded me of 《命中注定我爱你》. The grandmother, the man who was very rich, the rushed marriage, and all. Well I shan't be a spoiler :)

9th Sept Wednesday - went out with Rachel, Boonkee, Junweng and Liheng again LOL. Met for lunch then we went to AMK area for Kbox! Quite fun LOL. Good way to de-stress -.-" But it was super super cold, had to step outside to defrost for awhile, lol. Was bombarded by Chinese songs zzz but they were all very nice so it was OK.

Chiong-ed to tuition at night, I owe the teacher alot of undone essays LOL.

10 Sept Thursday - I rotted at home, spent my entire day watching 《命中注定我爱你》 LOL. Yes Imma sucker for romance lah OK! =.= The miscarriage episode super sad, cried like mad lol! But overall the show is fantastic with good humour, touching scenes, etc. OK I'm not going to do Lang Arts TV show review lah zz.

OK I attempted doing some work yesterday but I still ended up watching the show instead of doing work LOL. At least I finally finished watching it this morning! Today my parents went for Batam tour so I'm at home with my second brother only, lol. So sian.

Yay I'm done updating OK GOODBYE!

PS I miss my eldest brother alot alot T.T

Sunday, September 6, 2009

another way of looking at things

Have been busy. Will update soon. In the meantime, here's a very innocent song. Really. Lily Allen does wonders.

Fuck You - Lily Allen

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
Cos we're so uninspired
So sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbour

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist
Who can't tie my laces
You're point of view is medieval

Fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cos we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cos your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get
Do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded
You want to be like your father
His approval you're after
Well that's not how you'll find it

Do you
Do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful
'Cos there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control of it
And it's really distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cos we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cos your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

~

You say
You think we need to go to war
Well you're already in one
'Cos its people like you
Who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cos we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cos your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

15

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUCHING!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

when you're happy and hateful

LOL, got this from an email. I LMAO-ed. Already removed some vulgarities while copying over here. Haha, enjoy.

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time. I know where my watch is, pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their arse to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.

3. When people say 'You can't have a cake and eat it'. Damn wrong! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say 'It's always the last place you look'. Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this?

5. When people turns to you and say 'Did you see that?' after an exciting scene while watching a film. No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6. People who ask 'Can I ask you a question?' Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya, sunshine?

7. When something is stated 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say 'Life is short'. What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks 'Has the bus come yet?'. If the bus came would I be standing here, dude?

Saturday, August 29, 2009

he's got me high

Today was a tiring but nevertheless, beautiful day. LOL.

Morning woke up at the time where the trees and flowers and everybody else were still asleep, and went to Changi Airport to see my eldest brother off. It was super cold in the morning, man. Anyway my bro is going Wuhan. The house is already quiet this evening without him around. I wonder how it will be like for this coming six weeks.

After awhile at the airport, I realised I was going to reach school later than supposed to so chionged to school! Then I went into the Dance Studio and realised there wasn't many people around. Tio scammed =.=

Did some make up on the girls, danced awhile, played elope, it was relatively slack. Went to hall to rehearse, went back to Dance Studio, went to hall, went to Dance Studio. LOL. Slack around, danced some more, played elope somemore :D SO FUN LOL.

Dance ended, went to Harbourfront to eat lunch with dancers, then after that the guys left to buy their shirts while the girls went to get some presents. Chionged home, went to dental appointment, came home, very tired. But I'm still damn happy OK LOL.

Life is fantastic! Really. Happiness owns Physics ^_^

It's perplexing- in a good way. The comfort of friends. And the unexplained surge of emotion that hits me everytime he looks back into my eyes, smiling.

Hope all goes well.

2 more days. Let's make it, shall we?

Friday, August 28, 2009

it's true

It's a Friday again! I'm not gonna blabber about how it's Friday again, though. TGIF!!!

This week was kind of like any other screwed week. Results were depressing, but I shall not allow myself to be too stressed. After all, there's no point, is there? Tests were kind of weird. I don't know what I've been doing these days. There's like, CCA almost every other day. I don't know what to feel.

Today was an eventful day. Things good or bad, perhaps we shouldn't judge. Everybody have different life stories, and we should just accept them before having opinions, shouldn't we?

Feel like writing much more but I don't have the time. I know there's a saying that goes "There is time for things you want to do and no time for things you don't." But seriously, sleep is more important!

On a lighter note, it rained today and I liked it. Cold weather makes me happy. Ate dinner with Junweng after CCA, haha. Jia Xiang Mian for the win!

Life is fun. Live it to your fullest! I'm feeling a strong sense of delectation now. LOL.

OK gotta sleep. Brother's going China tomorrow morning at some godly hour and I won't get to see him for 1 and a half months. Damn sad. I'll miss him so, so badly. So I have to wake up at the godly hour to see him off at the airport. After that eat breakfast at airport then must chiong to school for CCA already.

I shan't say "life sucks", because life is the entire point I'm living for.

JIAYOUS EVERYBODY!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

we are not jugglers

Panick says:
retail therapy is not to encourage failure it's supposed to be motivation hahaha

Today was kind of screwed. Chem remedial was surprisingly OK, though.

Life is tiring. Whatever for?

Sunday, August 23, 2009

and he was like, blah blah blah

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years.

George Carlin

He pretty much summed up most of the things I wanted to say but had no idea how to express. No wonder he is George Carlin.

Dance yesterday was still damn weird. LOL. Haiz. Stopped at 1pm 'cause the school was closing. Went to Harbourfront with some dancers and ate lunch at the food court. Then Weiling left and pangseh-ed me so the rest of us went to walk around to look for costume. Zzz.

Ugh. Super sian. Tio many bruises from dance. Zzz.

Went home, blasted music that vibrated through the walls until my brother was kinda pissed off. LOL. De-stressing!

In the evening went to Kbox to celebrate my Godma's birthday. She used to be my babysitter when I was young. Haha. Long story.



She's 53! And she has 4 or 5 grandchildren. So pro! LOL. But she's super nice lah. I don't know what else to say.

Came home and continued to rot at home.

My head is bursting.

Some things happen quietly

Friday, August 21, 2009

if only i could be certain

This week was kind of weird. Totally screwed up Chem test on Wednesday. Dance is.. really really odd. LOL. Like Junweng said, "I don't know how to comment."

Haiz. Today CCA was bloody tiring. Not physically.. Just mentally. Emotionally? Everybody jiayous bah.

Went home with Junweng, then on the MRT there was this old guy sitting beside us, then he kept asking us about RV. LOL. Apparently he was from SAJC last time or something. He asked about the onion rings, the school campus, and he commented that RV is very far from our houses for about 3 times. LOLOL. So queer.

Anyway, I came home to a flooded house. Stupid brother forgot to close the living room windows when he left the house, and the rain kind of soaked up my living room and kitchen. Lucky the piano and the TV was OK. Everything else was wet -.- My brother is so irresponsible!! Ugh.

Got Dance tomorrow. Tired tired tired.

And I'm still wondering and trying to find the answer to Shaun's (from 3E) question. Perhaps I'll just continue waiting.

Everything I Want - Steve Rushton

You started on Thursday
At seven or maybe eight
You crashed into my world with a boom
You came over as a guest
I said I like you and I'd confess
About ten o'clock I was making fun of you
You stayed for a while
Then left with a smile
But at least i made you happy
You made me happy too
It's kinda cheezy to say but

You're everything I want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
You're the hand that fits my glove
And I'll never replace you
'Cause I'll never find love so true

It's only been three days
You're playing the waiting game
And acting cool when we're not together
I drove you home from school
When I'm with you I feel so tool
I wish this feeling would last forever
And I stare into space
My heart starts to race
Well at least I've got your picture
You gave me yesterday
It's kinda cheezy to say but

You're everything I want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
You're the hand that fits my glove
And I'll never replace you
'Cause I'll never find love so true

Looking back at us
Two years and we're going strong
They say that time flies when you're having fun
I never wanna be alone again no no

No, you're everything I want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
You're the hand that fits my glove
No, you're everything I want
You're everything I want
And I'll never replace you
'Cause I'll never find love so true

Saturday, August 15, 2009

well things are getting better.. i hope

SMS
From: Dad
Tang, you have to work with your dance mates as one united group, with your good friends.. Do not give up.. Good luck..

Yay I love my dad! HAHA. After all that happened, it is haunting me to say that this feels like the SYF period again. Too little time, too much stuffs to be done, and most importantly Benedict Soh not being very happy about it. Well maybe we might be kinda sucky LOL but nevermind WE CAN DO IT!! Jiayous everybody. LOLOL.

Been about a week since I've updated but there isn't much to update on anyway. Yesterday was not a good day, well, today had been better. Supposed to have dance today but ended up cancelled so I went out with Weiling in the afternoon! :D

I like going out with Weiling 'cause she's not judgemental. Haha! Met her at Tiong Bahru Plaza and then we went to watch Up!



Wow man that movie totally exceeded my expectations, it isn't just a lame cartoon animated show afterall :}

After the movie I succumbed to my sickening temptation and ended up shopping. Bought clothes at PepperPlus. Weiling has so much discipline, man. She didn't even want to buy anything! LOL. Anyway PepperPlus had this scratch card thing and I got a $5 off for my next purchase at any of their outlets and since I have decided not to shop so much anymore, I don't think I will use that $5 voucher LOL. So, anyone who is planning to buy clothes from PepperPlus PLEASE TELL ME!

Went home and got nagged at my mom for shopping again. LOL. I feel terribly guilty this time- I've been buying so much =.=

I
I will
I will not
I will not splurge
I will not splurge on
I will not splurge on unnecessary
I will not splurge on unnecessary stuffs
I will not splurge on unnecessary stuffs anymore
I will not splurge on unnecessary stuffs anymore. AHHHHH!

Friday, August 14, 2009

this is all so fucked up

tzechong says:
siao leh
why this year like this lol

Monday, August 10, 2009

they say patience is a virtue

Last night was quite fun! Supposed to have met up with Yuching and the rest to go Marina Barrage to watch fireworks! But I went with my family instead to Singapore River there, sorry guys! LOL.

Me and my family (excluding my second brother who stayed at home to game) reached the Ancient Civilization Museum at about 4pm. We walked into the museum which was sorta cool, in a way. But then suddenly I saw so many birds and animals and insects that were "preserved with chemicals" on display and I felt kinda sick to my stomach. There was this unsettling feeling in me so I got out almost immediately. LOL. Then there were some food stalls around so I had some Laska! It's been long since I ate Laksa, man.

Then we sat down somewhere around and waited for the parade to start. I didn't know I was so tired until I dozed off beside my brother. He dozed off, too. LOL. Then suddenly I woke up then ate some more stuff, then walked around the area with my brother. Saw Cari and Tracy and the Interact Club people. They were doing CIP I think. Then Tracy thought my brother was my father. LOL HAHAHA. Joke.

Then continued walking around, took many pictures with my brother at the bridge. I don't know what's that bridge called. LOL.

Then the parade began. We watched it on this large screen. There wasn't anything interesting except for all the helicopters and aircrafts and stuff. It was quite cool 'cause the helicopters and aircrafts actually flew past our area above our heads even before reaching Marina Bay. So we had the first hand of those flying machines! LOL.

Then blah blah National Anthem blah blah Singapore Pledge at 8.22pm. Why was there a pause between "achieve" and "happiness"?!?! Zzz. OK nevermind. Then blah blah sing song talk crap with my brother then suddenly got fireworks! So many beautiful fireworks haha! Yeah we saw the fireworks live. Damn cool, I love the popping sound the fireworks make.

But I think it would have been cooler to watch if sitting in the Stadium itself. Like I did a few years ago. There was one year where my family and I got the tickets to Padang then we sat at the last few rows then they gave us umbrellas! They said it was to ensure that in case the fireworks dropped on us, at least we got shelter LOL. Damn cool. The umbrellas were transparent! LOL.

OK anyway after the parade finished (I thought the parade was quite short, actually), we went home in the comfort of my dad's car HAHAHA. If I had went with Yuching they all I would have had to walk back from Marina Barrage to the MRT station which was damn far! LOL sorry for rubbing it in, guys. Haha.

Today was boring.

---------------

This sucks. LOL. Emotions make humans amazing, but feeling vulnerable is so sickening. It's like getting a bad cough. Your throat is itchy and everything, and there's this choking sensation but there's nothing you can do about it except eat medicine and wait for it to go away.

The only difference between this and a bad cough? You know you want this. Somehow you want this. Oh, and there isn't any medicine strong enough to get rid of this. You need your willpower. But your willpower is questioning yourself, your heart.

Dammit.

The One I'm Waiting For - Relient K

The way that girl can break a heart
It's like a work of art
And this is the worst part
She knows it

And she's so confident
That she's what everybody wants
But nobody wants
Her to know that

So fall back on all of your premonitions
And just learn to listen
To those that have more wisdom than you
And just stop
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those that you love

And I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for

The way that girl can turn a head
Well she is such a threat
But don't ever forget
She knows it

And she's got it all
All figured out
And she won't let you doubt
She knows it

I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for
I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for

So fall back on all of your premonitions
And just learn to listen
To those that have more wisdom than you
And just stop
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those that you love

I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for
I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for

I'm still waiting for (Something tells me that this is going to make sense)
Something tells me it's going to take patience
I'm still waiting for (Something tells me that this will all work out in the end)
You to be the one I'm waiting for

Sunday, August 9, 2009

just gotta keep going

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

The week was quite a blur, again, as usual. Was very tired the entire week, I don't know why. On Friday it was National Day celebration, I tell you it could have been the most boring National Day celebrations I had in my whole life.

After that had CCA, I think the thrash out was pretty good, and then the practice was rather productive! After CCA went to eat at Harbourfront with Rachel, Rebecca, Gladys, Jieru, Liheng, Junweng and Shaun. Haha. It was fun! We need more group outings like this. LOL.

Yesterday morning met Chingxing and Xumeng at J8 to do CID project. Haha in the end it was rather weird because 1) Xumeng was a friggin' tall guy hanging out with 2 much less taller girls -.- and 2) Amanda and Mengying couldn't come so we didn't know how to handle the project LOL and 3) we wanted to go to Macs initially but it was packed up so we went to the library and Xumeng kept getting reminded to be quieter LOL.

Ahh, it was so odd. Nevermind.

Came home and I decided to be a good girl and I actually tried to start on Maths. Thank you Tzechong for teaching me, haha. Well, what can I say, you have alot of patience LOL.

At night went to eat with big family! Including my uncles and cousin. Haha. 'Cause my grandfather took up a new job recently (since he was very bored without a job) and he got his first paycheck from this new job! So he gave us all a treat :D

This morning, went jogging with my entire family! 5 of us! So cool right. Haha. Jogged around Bishan area then jogged to Braddell area and we ate MacDonalds breakfast there. Then we walked back. I feel so fufilled now. I love my family HAHA.

PS I missed the 12:34:56 07/08/09 thing! Although my dad smsed me many times to remind me of it, but I was having dance practice with the sec 3s so I missed it AHHHH sian ):

PPS Movies I want to watch:
- G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra
- Up!!!
- The Proposal

Friday, August 7, 2009

you don't really know what you've got till it's gone

My eldest brother is going to China for exchange programme from 29 August to 10 October.

1 month plus leh! So long. Damn sad. I'm gonna miss him like crap.

I don't know what to feel now. I'm not being insouciant.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

if only everyday was a holiday

On every Friday, Shiyi, Mengying and I would exclaim to ourselves that it's a Friday again. It seems like last Friday was only yesterday and the next Friday coming tomorrow. It seems like everyday is a Friday.

Most probably because Friday is the only day I can remember vividly. The pure bliss when it's Friday again and thinking that the week is over, finally. Thinking of the weekends, thinking of sleeping in just for a little while more, thinking of no irritating teachers screaming their heads off day after day, just lights up my day.

The rest of the week just shuffles past, hoping it wouldn't be noticed, and expectedly, I can't seem to have felt it. Remember what happened yesterday? No, I can't remember. I can only remember last weekend. I can only think and wish for the next weekend.

Week after week this happens, and I don't know what else is happening anymore. Everyday I strive to be better, to ensure that I'm not falling off the tracks, but shit happens. The tracks got derailed. I accidentally-on-purpose forgot to do my homework. The notes are beside me but I don't wanna touch them for the next test, on the next day. Sit through the test wanting to beat myself up but I don't. Getting back the test paper with a huge unwritten F9 stapled in my mind.

Then occasionally I sit in front of the computer and cry, thinking, why am I wasting my life? I try to help myself but somehow I can't. I want to fix those tracks. But before I can start on the first step, the rest of the tracks cracked even further, splitting up those motivation I had before. I need a long break, I tell myself. A long break when I can slowly mend those stupid problems up before the shithole gets even deeper. Yet when the long break comes I slacken, and in the end no work is done.

After so long, I only have one question: What the hell is wrong with me? I really did hope that Mrs Look could have given me counselling when I had to meet her that Friday morning. But damn, she didn't.

On a much lighter note, I'm happier these days. Because there isn't as much homework as before, though I still hate Log and wish it would die and not give birth to a baby called Trigo. The rest, as they say, is history (I have no idea what this sentence means- I'm just learning from Richie).

Friday was a CCA phototaking session day. It was quite fun. Slack, too. After CCA went J8's Swensens with Junweng for dinner. Damn shiok siah the pasta. So long never eat already. Haha. Yesterday met with Weiling and Richie at Vivo for movie! We watched Overheard.



It's a chinese movie and I never thought I'd ever say this about chinese movies, but damn! The movie was really really good. Freaking cool, plus it's comprehensible. Haha. Go watch go watch :)

After the movies went to Great World City and ate Macs. Weiling kept getting off her seat because there was a housefly around and she was scared of it, LOL. Then after awhile Dillon joined us. Woah LOL he's so tall now.

Then later on in the evening, cabbed to ACSI with them and watched their Drama Play for the night. Last year's was better, but still beats the stuff from RV. LOL. After the entire thing took public transport home and reached home at 11 plus pm. So tired.

Today was a usual Sunday so there's nothing much to mention about. There is a test tomorrow, and it's the start of a new week. I wonder how it'll go.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

growing colder the older we grow

Some days I sit, starin' out the window
Watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live for
I almost break down and cry

Sometimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am I just wasting my time?

People make jokes, 'cause they don't understand me
They just don't see my real side

I act like shit don't phase me
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive

Hailie's Song — Eminem

Sunday, July 26, 2009

the stars in the sky- they cried

Life is getting relatively boring I have nothing much to update on.

On Friday, CCA was rather weird. It was quite scary actually, when there are so little people around. The air-con was so cold, it felt chilly. After CCA went to eat dinner with Jun Weng. Introduced him to Jia Xiang Mian at Vivo! Hahaha he said it was nice ^^ I'm an ardent supporter of that food. Haha. Already introduced it to lots of people. Like Weiling (who loves it like mad now), Richie, Rachel, and so on.

Last night went to watch Harry Potter with my family.



You could say that this Harry Potter was much nicer than the rest, to me anyway. Most probably 'cause this movie had a much stronger human element portrayed than in the other movies. And I think after watching this movie, I am going to start reading Harry Potter. Finally.

Anyway it was so sweet when there was this love thing going on between Ron and Hermione, though I think Hermione seems to be more suitable with Harry, but since Harry is rather short, I guess Ron is fine. Haha. I was practically crying when Dumbledore died- although I don't really have any idea who is he, except that he was a good man. And it's a pity when good old professors die, killed in the hands of bad people.

On a random note, Amy MacDonald sings really well. And she's naturally pretty. Beautiful. And her songs make lots of sense, like Eminem's and Lenka's. Richie recommended her songs.

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

How I am going to end up in the future, I really have no idea. Teachers ask, friends ask. They ask about my ambition. I search around my brain for an answer- but I disappoint myself, again, realizing I can't answer the question. I'm 15 and I still have no ambition. Is that wrong? Is that bad?

I want to make a choice for myself. I do not want to end up like the clones you see on the streets today. Different kind of clones, that is. Teenagers looking all alike, girls with their hair rebonded, speaking the twit language, thinking of looking better everyday, maybe plastic surgery next time? And the boys with their pants down their butt crack, impressing the girls, showing off in front of their guy friends, and screwing up their lives.

As for adults, they come and go, rushing everywhere, seldom slowing down to appreciate life, people around them. Am I wrong or is there actually a choice about this? Or, probably, was there a choice? I think there used to be a choice. But the hopes of advancing, of progressing, of striving to be the best of the bests has killed all of human's nature. People are too smart, too fast for their own good. Where had the all the life gone?

It's all the same- you are created, and then your parents send you to tuitions even before you can learn to talk. Then they suck up to one of the good primary schools to make sure you get in. Assessment books appear more regularly, and as they stack up, your misery stacks up too. Just that you don't realize it, because you have been doing them all the time. You are used to it. Then one day when you are old enough to find out more about the world, you discover that you were deprived of your childhood. Why, you ask your parents. And they tell you, they claim that it's all for your own good. They say it in a thousand different ways. And they think it's right, because they think that they are caring for you, looking out for you.

Perhaps in some ways this might be true, but robbing you of memories you were supposed to have, but didn't get in the end, would not have done you any good.

What is wrong with everybody?! Doesn't anyone else sense that the more this happens, the faster human beings are going to disappear? They study so hard, they end up studying, working their whole life. All they get out of it? More greenhouse gases in the atmosphere, no joy. Then when they are old, they look back and realized they didn't live their life.

Dammit, I don't know. I don't know how to feel about this. I don't know where I'm gonna go.

This Is The Life - Amy MacDonald

Oh the wind whistles down
The cold dark street tonight
And the people they were dancing to the music vibe
And the boys chase the girls with the curls in their hair
While the shy tormented youth sit way over there
And the songs they get louder
Each one better than before

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

So you're heading down the road in your taxi for four
And you're waiting outside Jimmy's front door
But nobody's in and nobody's home 'til four
So you're sitting there with nothing to do
Talking about Robert Riger and his motley crew
And where you're gonna go and where you're gonna sleep tonight

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

And you're singing the songs
Thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna sleep tonight?

Where you gonna sleep tonight?