Most probably because Friday is the only day I can remember vividly. The pure bliss when it's Friday again and thinking that the week is over, finally. Thinking of the weekends, thinking of sleeping in just for a little while more, thinking of no irritating teachers screaming their heads off day after day, just lights up my day.
The rest of the week just shuffles past, hoping it wouldn't be noticed, and expectedly, I can't seem to have felt it. Remember what happened yesterday? No, I can't remember. I can only remember last weekend. I can only think and wish for the next weekend.
Week after week this happens, and I don't know what else is happening anymore. Everyday I strive to be better, to ensure that I'm not falling off the tracks, but shit happens. The tracks got derailed. I accidentally-on-purpose forgot to do my homework. The notes are beside me but I don't wanna touch them for the next test, on the next day. Sit through the test wanting to beat myself up but I don't. Getting back the test paper with a huge unwritten F9 stapled in my mind.
Then occasionally I sit in front of the computer and cry, thinking, why am I wasting my life? I try to help myself but somehow I can't. I want to fix those tracks. But before I can start on the first step, the rest of the tracks cracked even further, splitting up those motivation I had before. I need a long break, I tell myself. A long break when I can slowly mend those stupid problems up before the shithole gets even deeper. Yet when the long break comes I slacken, and in the end no work is done.
After so long, I only have one question: What the hell is wrong with me? I really did hope that Mrs Look could have given me counselling when I had to meet her that Friday morning. But damn, she didn't.
On a much lighter note, I'm happier these days. Because there isn't as much homework as before, though I still hate Log and wish it would die and not give birth to a baby called Trigo. The rest, as they say, is history (I have no idea what this sentence means- I'm just learning from Richie).
Friday was a CCA phototaking session day. It was quite fun. Slack, too. After CCA went J8's Swensens with Junweng for dinner. Damn shiok siah the pasta. So long never eat already. Haha. Yesterday met with Weiling and Richie at Vivo for movie! We watched Overheard.
It's a chinese movie and I never thought I'd ever say this about chinese movies, but damn! The movie was really really good. Freaking cool, plus it's comprehensible. Haha. Go watch go watch :)
After the movies went to Great World City and ate Macs. Weiling kept getting off her seat because there was a housefly around and she was scared of it, LOL. Then after awhile Dillon joined us. Woah LOL he's so tall now.
Then later on in the evening, cabbed to ACSI with them and watched their Drama Play for the night. Last year's was better, but still beats the stuff from RV. LOL. After the entire thing took public transport home and reached home at 11 plus pm. So tired.
Today was a usual Sunday so there's nothing much to mention about. There is a test tomorrow, and it's the start of a new week. I wonder how it'll go.
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