when you're happy and hateful

LOL, got this from an email. I LMAO-ed. Already removed some vulgarities while copying over here. Haha, enjoy.

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time. I know where my watch is, pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their arse to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.

3. When people say 'You can't have a cake and eat it'. Damn wrong! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say 'It's always the last place you look'. Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this?

5. When people turns to you and say 'Did you see that?' after an exciting scene while watching a film. No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6. People who ask 'Can I ask you a question?' Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya, sunshine?

7. When something is stated 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say 'Life is short'. What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks 'Has the bus come yet?'. If the bus came would I be standing here, dude?

he's got me high

Today was a tiring but nevertheless, beautiful day. LOL.

Morning woke up at the time where the trees and flowers and everybody else were still asleep, and went to Changi Airport to see my eldest brother off. It was super cold in the morning, man. Anyway my bro is going Wuhan. The house is already quiet this evening without him around. I wonder how it will be like for this coming six weeks.

After awhile at the airport, I realised I was going to reach school later than supposed to so chionged to school! Then I went into the Dance Studio and realised there wasn't many people around. Tio scammed =.=

Did some make up on the girls, danced awhile, played elope, it was relatively slack. Went to hall to rehearse, went back to Dance Studio, went to hall, went to Dance Studio. LOL. Slack around, danced some more, played elope somemore :D SO FUN LOL.

Dance ended, went to Harbourfront to eat lunch with dancers, then after that the guys left to buy their shirts while the girls went to get some presents. Chionged home, went to dental appointment, came home, very tired. But I'm still damn happy OK LOL.

Life is fantastic! Really. Happiness owns Physics ^_^

It's perplexing- in a good way. The comfort of friends. And the unexplained surge of emotion that hits me everytime he looks back into my eyes, smiling.

Hope all goes well.

2 more days. Let's make it, shall we?

it's true

It's a Friday again! I'm not gonna blabber about how it's Friday again, though. TGIF!!!

This week was kind of like any other screwed week. Results were depressing, but I shall not allow myself to be too stressed. After all, there's no point, is there? Tests were kind of weird. I don't know what I've been doing these days. There's like, CCA almost every other day. I don't know what to feel.

Today was an eventful day. Things good or bad, perhaps we shouldn't judge. Everybody have different life stories, and we should just accept them before having opinions, shouldn't we?

Feel like writing much more but I don't have the time. I know there's a saying that goes "There is time for things you want to do and no time for things you don't." But seriously, sleep is more important!

On a lighter note, it rained today and I liked it. Cold weather makes me happy. Ate dinner with Junweng after CCA, haha. Jia Xiang Mian for the win!

Life is fun. Live it to your fullest! I'm feeling a strong sense of delectation now. LOL.

OK gotta sleep. Brother's going China tomorrow morning at some godly hour and I won't get to see him for 1 and a half months. Damn sad. I'll miss him so, so badly. So I have to wake up at the godly hour to see him off at the airport. After that eat breakfast at airport then must chiong to school for CCA already.

I shan't say "life sucks", because life is the entire point I'm living for.

JIAYOUS EVERYBODY!

we are not jugglers

Panick says:
retail therapy is not to encourage failure it's supposed to be motivation hahaha

Today was kind of screwed. Chem remedial was surprisingly OK, though.

Life is tiring. Whatever for?

and he was like, blah blah blah

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years.

— George Carlin

He pretty much summed up most of the things I wanted to say but had no idea how to express. No wonder he is George Carlin.

Dance yesterday was still damn weird. LOL. Haiz. Stopped at 1pm 'cause the school was closing. Went to Harbourfront with some dancers and ate lunch at the food court. Then Weiling left and pangseh-ed me so the rest of us went to walk around to look for costume. Zzz.

Ugh. Super sian. Tio many bruises from dance. Zzz.

Went home, blasted music that vibrated through the walls until my brother was kinda pissed off. LOL. De-stressing!

In the evening went to Kbox to celebrate my Godma's birthday. She used to be my babysitter when I was young. Haha. Long story.



She's 53! And she has 4 or 5 grandchildren. So pro! LOL. But she's super nice lah. I don't know what else to say.

Came home and continued to rot at home.

My head is bursting.

Some things happen quietly

if only i could be certain

This week was kind of weird. Totally screwed up Chem test on Wednesday. Dance is.. really really odd. LOL. Like Junweng said, "I don't know how to comment."

Haiz. Today CCA was bloody tiring. Not physically.. Just mentally. Emotionally? Everybody jiayous bah.

Went home with Junweng, then on the MRT there was this old guy sitting beside us, then he kept asking us about RV. LOL. Apparently he was from SAJC last time or something. He asked about the onion rings, the school campus, and he commented that RV is very far from our houses for about 3 times. LOLOL. So queer.

Anyway, I came home to a flooded house. Stupid brother forgot to close the living room windows when he left the house, and the rain kind of soaked up my living room and kitchen. Lucky the piano and the TV was OK. Everything else was wet -.- My brother is so irresponsible!! Ugh.

Got Dance tomorrow. Tired tired tired.

And I'm still wondering and trying to find the answer to Shaun's (from 3E) question. Perhaps I'll just continue waiting.

Everything I Want - Steve Rushton

You started on Thursday
At seven or maybe eight
You crashed into my world with a boom
You came over as a guest
I said I like you and I'd confess
About ten o'clock I was making fun of you
You stayed for a while
Then left with a smile
But at least i made you happy
You made me happy too
It's kinda cheezy to say but

You're everything I want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
You're the hand that fits my glove
And I'll never replace you
'Cause I'll never find love so true

It's only been three days
You're playing the waiting game
And acting cool when we're not together
I drove you home from school
When I'm with you I feel so tool
I wish this feeling would last forever
And I stare into space
My heart starts to race
Well at least I've got your picture
You gave me yesterday
It's kinda cheezy to say but

You're everything I want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
You're the hand that fits my glove
And I'll never replace you
'Cause I'll never find love so true

Looking back at us
Two years and we're going strong
They say that time flies when you're having fun
I never wanna be alone again no no

No, you're everything I want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
You're the hand that fits my glove
No, you're everything I want
You're everything I want
And I'll never replace you
'Cause I'll never find love so true

well things are getting better.. i hope

SMS
From: Dad
Tang, you have to work with your dance mates as one united group, with your good friends.. Do not give up.. Good luck..

Yay I love my dad! HAHA. After all that happened, it is haunting me to say that this feels like the SYF period again. Too little time, too much stuffs to be done, and most importantly Benedict Soh not being very happy about it. Well maybe we might be kinda sucky LOL but nevermind WE CAN DO IT!! Jiayous everybody. LOLOL.

Been about a week since I've updated but there isn't much to update on anyway. Yesterday was not a good day, well, today had been better. Supposed to have dance today but ended up cancelled so I went out with Weiling in the afternoon! :D

I like going out with Weiling 'cause she's not judgemental. Haha! Met her at Tiong Bahru Plaza and then we went to watch Up!



Wow man that movie totally exceeded my expectations, it isn't just a lame cartoon animated show afterall :}

After the movie I succumbed to my sickening temptation and ended up shopping. Bought clothes at PepperPlus. Weiling has so much discipline, man. She didn't even want to buy anything! LOL. Anyway PepperPlus had this scratch card thing and I got a $5 off for my next purchase at any of their outlets and since I have decided not to shop so much anymore, I don't think I will use that $5 voucher LOL. So, anyone who is planning to buy clothes from PepperPlus PLEASE TELL ME!

Went home and got nagged at my mom for shopping again. LOL. I feel terribly guilty this time- I've been buying so much =.=

I
I will
I will not
I will not splurge
I will not splurge on
I will not splurge on unnecessary
I will not splurge on unnecessary stuffs
I will not splurge on unnecessary stuffs anymore
I will not splurge on unnecessary stuffs anymore. AHHHHH!

this is all so fucked up

tzechong says:
siao leh
why this year like this lol

they say patience is a virtue

Last night was quite fun! Supposed to have met up with Yuching and the rest to go Marina Barrage to watch fireworks! But I went with my family instead to Singapore River there, sorry guys! LOL.

Me and my family (excluding my second brother who stayed at home to game) reached the Ancient Civilization Museum at about 4pm. We walked into the museum which was sorta cool, in a way. But then suddenly I saw so many birds and animals and insects that were "preserved with chemicals" on display and I felt kinda sick to my stomach. There was this unsettling feeling in me so I got out almost immediately. LOL. Then there were some food stalls around so I had some Laska! It's been long since I ate Laksa, man.

Then we sat down somewhere around and waited for the parade to start. I didn't know I was so tired until I dozed off beside my brother. He dozed off, too. LOL. Then suddenly I woke up then ate some more stuff, then walked around the area with my brother. Saw Cari and Tracy and the Interact Club people. They were doing CIP I think. Then Tracy thought my brother was my father. LOL HAHAHA. Joke.

Then continued walking around, took many pictures with my brother at the bridge. I don't know what's that bridge called. LOL.

Then the parade began. We watched it on this large screen. There wasn't anything interesting except for all the helicopters and aircrafts and stuff. It was quite cool 'cause the helicopters and aircrafts actually flew past our area above our heads even before reaching Marina Bay. So we had the first hand of those flying machines! LOL.

Then blah blah National Anthem blah blah Singapore Pledge at 8.22pm. Why was there a pause between "achieve" and "happiness"?!?! Zzz. OK nevermind. Then blah blah sing song talk crap with my brother then suddenly got fireworks! So many beautiful fireworks haha! Yeah we saw the fireworks live. Damn cool, I love the popping sound the fireworks make.

But I think it would have been cooler to watch if sitting in the Stadium itself. Like I did a few years ago. There was one year where my family and I got the tickets to Padang then we sat at the last few rows then they gave us umbrellas! They said it was to ensure that in case the fireworks dropped on us, at least we got shelter LOL. Damn cool. The umbrellas were transparent! LOL.

OK anyway after the parade finished (I thought the parade was quite short, actually), we went home in the comfort of my dad's car HAHAHA. If I had went with Yuching they all I would have had to walk back from Marina Barrage to the MRT station which was damn far! LOL sorry for rubbing it in, guys. Haha.

Today was boring.

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This sucks. LOL. Emotions make humans amazing, but feeling vulnerable is so sickening. It's like getting a bad cough. Your throat is itchy and everything, and there's this choking sensation but there's nothing you can do about it except eat medicine and wait for it to go away.

The only difference between this and a bad cough? You know you want this. Somehow you want this. Oh, and there isn't any medicine strong enough to get rid of this. You need your willpower. But your willpower is questioning yourself, your heart.

Dammit.

The One I'm Waiting For - Relient K

The way that girl can break a heart
It's like a work of art
And this is the worst part
She knows it

And she's so confident
That she's what everybody wants
But nobody wants
Her to know that

So fall back on all of your premonitions
And just learn to listen
To those that have more wisdom than you
And just stop
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those that you love

And I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for

The way that girl can turn a head
Well she is such a threat
But don't ever forget
She knows it

And she's got it all
All figured out
And she won't let you doubt
She knows it

I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for
I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for

So fall back on all of your premonitions
And just learn to listen
To those that have more wisdom than you
And just stop
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those that you love

I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for
I'm still waiting for
You to be the one I'm waiting for

I'm still waiting for (Something tells me that this is going to make sense)
Something tells me it's going to take patience
I'm still waiting for (Something tells me that this will all work out in the end)
You to be the one I'm waiting for

just gotta keep going

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

The week was quite a blur, again, as usual. Was very tired the entire week, I don't know why. On Friday it was National Day celebration, I tell you it could have been the most boring National Day celebrations I had in my whole life.

After that had CCA, I think the thrash out was pretty good, and then the practice was rather productive! After CCA went to eat at Harbourfront with Rachel, Rebecca, Gladys, Jieru, Liheng, Junweng and Shaun. Haha. It was fun! We need more group outings like this. LOL.

Yesterday morning met Chingxing and Xumeng at J8 to do CID project. Haha in the end it was rather weird because 1) Xumeng was a friggin' tall guy hanging out with 2 much less taller girls -.- and 2) Amanda and Mengying couldn't come so we didn't know how to handle the project LOL and 3) we wanted to go to Macs initially but it was packed up so we went to the library and Xumeng kept getting reminded to be quieter LOL.

Ahh, it was so odd. Nevermind.

Came home and I decided to be a good girl and I actually tried to start on Maths. Thank you Tzechong for teaching me, haha. Well, what can I say, you have alot of patience LOL.

At night went to eat with big family! Including my uncles and cousin. Haha. 'Cause my grandfather took up a new job recently (since he was very bored without a job) and he got his first paycheck from this new job! So he gave us all a treat :D

This morning, went jogging with my entire family! 5 of us! So cool right. Haha. Jogged around Bishan area then jogged to Braddell area and we ate MacDonalds breakfast there. Then we walked back. I feel so fufilled now. I love my family HAHA.

PS I missed the 12:34:56 07/08/09 thing! Although my dad smsed me many times to remind me of it, but I was having dance practice with the sec 3s so I missed it AHHHH sian ):

PPS Movies I want to watch:
- G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra
- Up!!!
- The Proposal

you don't really know what you've got till it's gone

My eldest brother is going to China for exchange programme from 29 August to 10 October.

1 month plus leh! So long. Damn sad. I'm gonna miss him like crap.

I don't know what to feel now. I'm not being insouciant.

if only everyday was a holiday

On every Friday, Shiyi, Mengying and I would exclaim to ourselves that it's a Friday again. It seems like last Friday was only yesterday and the next Friday coming tomorrow. It seems like everyday is a Friday.

Most probably because Friday is the only day I can remember vividly. The pure bliss when it's Friday again and thinking that the week is over, finally. Thinking of the weekends, thinking of sleeping in just for a little while more, thinking of no irritating teachers screaming their heads off day after day, just lights up my day.

The rest of the week just shuffles past, hoping it wouldn't be noticed, and expectedly, I can't seem to have felt it. Remember what happened yesterday? No, I can't remember. I can only remember last weekend. I can only think and wish for the next weekend.

Week after week this happens, and I don't know what else is happening anymore. Everyday I strive to be better, to ensure that I'm not falling off the tracks, but shit happens. The tracks got derailed. I accidentally-on-purpose forgot to do my homework. The notes are beside me but I don't wanna touch them for the next test, on the next day. Sit through the test wanting to beat myself up but I don't. Getting back the test paper with a huge unwritten F9 stapled in my mind.

Then occasionally I sit in front of the computer and cry, thinking, why am I wasting my life? I try to help myself but somehow I can't. I want to fix those tracks. But before I can start on the first step, the rest of the tracks cracked even further, splitting up those motivation I had before. I need a long break, I tell myself. A long break when I can slowly mend those stupid problems up before the shithole gets even deeper. Yet when the long break comes I slacken, and in the end no work is done.

After so long, I only have one question: What the hell is wrong with me? I really did hope that Mrs Look could have given me counselling when I had to meet her that Friday morning. But damn, she didn't.

On a much lighter note, I'm happier these days. Because there isn't as much homework as before, though I still hate Log and wish it would die and not give birth to a baby called Trigo. The rest, as they say, is history (I have no idea what this sentence means- I'm just learning from Richie).

Friday was a CCA phototaking session day. It was quite fun. Slack, too. After CCA went J8's Swensens with Junweng for dinner. Damn shiok siah the pasta. So long never eat already. Haha. Yesterday met with Weiling and Richie at Vivo for movie! We watched Overheard.



It's a chinese movie and I never thought I'd ever say this about chinese movies, but damn! The movie was really really good. Freaking cool, plus it's comprehensible. Haha. Go watch go watch :)

After the movies went to Great World City and ate Macs. Weiling kept getting off her seat because there was a housefly around and she was scared of it, LOL. Then after awhile Dillon joined us. Woah LOL he's so tall now.

Then later on in the evening, cabbed to ACSI with them and watched their Drama Play for the night. Last year's was better, but still beats the stuff from RV. LOL. After the entire thing took public transport home and reached home at 11 plus pm. So tired.

Today was a usual Sunday so there's nothing much to mention about. There is a test tomorrow, and it's the start of a new week. I wonder how it'll go.